Where I onced lived

 

 

I once lived in a battered house 

built with drunk stones and murky bed sheets

Where lightning was the least of my worries

and the arachnid belt stings were but mellow rain drops

shadowing my every feel of discoloration 

I used to play with toy guns with real murderers,

until the incarceration began and left me alone with only 

my German Shepherd and my gallo Emelio to attend too

My first kiss was from a girl with tear drops for lips...

her fragrance was of salt and innocense, it was

knitted on her Sunday dress that she wore 4 times a week

I remember seeing clowns but never laughing...

...watching death yet never cried

For death wasn't introduced to me just yet 

but just another fly on a spiders web that never seemed to move

I remember demons dancing in my crib

shaped like teddy bears without ears covered in rollie pollie skin

In the morning I would wake up to the smell of gun powder s**t stains

scattered in the mist of slum gardens and heavy breathing of ones last 

crooked smile buried above the tombstone of their final disappearing act

We had a lot of magicians in El Salvador...

... They made a lot of people go Abra Cadabra 

with their machete wands and their disposable fire crackers

No one ever begged for money or clothing

they would just take it and never even say thank you...

...They would just make the givers beg 

for what had already belonged to them

Some would cry and yell for help...

...my aunt was one of them

Most of my people had no manners,

sort of like my neighbors who use to throw their

animal skulls over our backyard 

Damn litter bugs...

They were funny people though...

They celebrated Halloween every day,

I guess it was there favorite holiday or something

I used to live with my mother, my nanny , my aunt, and three uncles

Though my mom did never come back 

after I woke up from my nap

I missed her deeply...

....It's okay though

she came back...

 

 

...5 years later

People asked me who my father was,

I simply said...

 

 

"What's that?"