A.M

tossing and turning at 4am

unable to sleep

and feeling uncomfortable

in my own skin

my stomach churns and my hands tingle

i feel nothing yet everything

all at once

i thought i didn't want to feel anything anymore

but it turns out all i wanted

was to feel important

tossing and turning at 5am

i wonder where i am

and what i have done with my life

i contemplate the meaning of all this

and curse at god that i no longer believe in

6am and drowsy

i create a fantasy in my head

where someone saves me from my own mind

and takes me to a place 

where i can never be hurt again

7am and knocked out

i fall asleep with a slight smile

that may only last as long as my slumber

Reviews

[Lucien Maier]

nicely done, the words feel like insomnia. Getting that to resonate to a reader is a very difficult feat and you have done it extremely well.

[Chrys]

I like this a lot. I struggle so much with something as seemingly simple as sleep. The nite time for me can be so maddening, while at the same time it is the time each day where I am the most alive. I also have this need for approval, to feel important as you said in this piece. Some of us crave that. I definitely see a lot of that in this.

[Bluefire]

This happens to me a lot, where my mind won't shut it's trap and let me sleep.
So I give it something to do, make it play a story I can fall asleep to.
Well done!

[Chris Micha]

Great piece! I just wrote one called In.som.ni.a, so this resonates with me!

[Shay]

Thanks :) I'll definitely check yours out!

[Douglas Levi Gribbins]

Great piece of writing, keep it up!

[Shay]

Thank you :)

[Madalyn Beck]

This is so sad. I know the feeling of wanting to feel important to someone. Sometimes, your own mind can also be your worst enemy. Hang in here dear! :)

[Shay]

That's true. Thank you :)