My Life

This is about my life from when i was three and up until now

Growing up i listened to everyone talk about havin a mom and dad. My mother was only around until i turned six and a half and my father was never in the picture until i turned eighteen and even then he still didn't want anything to do with me. When i was three years old my moms boyfriend was physical abusive towards me. I had been punched in the face, slammed into a wall, had a coffee table thrown at my face, i was locked in my room which was covered in roaches and feces and i had headlice really bad. I wasn't allowed to eat or play. I remember when i was six years old my mom had took me and my little sister who at the time was three for a walk i told her i loved her and i got slapped in the face and left on the side of the road with my sister. Thank god my aunt was driving by and seen what happened and she took me to my grandparents house. While there i had to talk to the cops and they had lifted my shirt up and i was covered with bruises my mom then got arrested and my aunt and uncle got custody of me and my sister. My childhood then after that was amazing up until i turned twelve, When i was twelve years old i got sexually abused by someone close to me who i thought cared about me it started with touching and then worked its way up then when i turned seventeen he raped me and took my virginity. I was always getting picked on and getting called dirty and a stuck up b***h, One day i hit my breaking point and i tried to kill myself twice. The first time i tried to overdose the second time i cut myself because i didnt want to go on with life i thought since everyone picked on me and the abuse i had at home life would be better if i just went to heaven because in heaven you get accepted for who you are. After everything that happened i had moved in with a boyfriend at the time and i was afraid to have sex then one night he got me so drunk till the point i was blacking in and out and he raped me the next morning i left and i moved in with my real father up in lima ohio and life was so much better i actually had a support group and felt loved. I lived there for three months and then i left and came back to springfield i met an amazing guy and i finally had the courage to have sex and i got a beautiful baby boy out of all that. Right now my life is still fucked up i am in and out of counseling, I have seperation anxiety, and i am depressed all the time. I am always afraid to be alone because i always think that someone is going to break in and rape me and god knows what else. So i had one fucked up childhood and i always got picked on when noone even knew me or what i had been through. Thank you for listening to my story

 

<3 Cici

Author's Note

Some of this may not be appropriate for all viewers but i want everyone to know what my childhood was like and i wanted to share my story with everyone.

Reviews

[b.platte]

OH Jesus. This is a heartbreaking story. I am so sorry about all that you had to endure, especially from such a young age. You're story is a very very sad but incredible one.

The fact that you survived all that is utterly amazing.

[sierrasparks91]

Yea i did survive all of it but right now i have seperation anxiety, post tramatic stress disorder and i still act like a little kid some times and i am always freaking out about getting close to someone bc i am scared for my life so i may have survived but i still have alot of stuff wrong with me