Mourn

the uncle I was closest to, passed away last August and left behind nothing but a cruel mourning period

15/8/16

First mourning night.

But first grieving year? 

2.People keep telling me I’ll find solace in prayer. 

What use is solace to me? 

The world has turned grey. 

The flowers on your bedside have withered. 

3. Today, I found myself at the monastery. 

I told myself I’ve come seeking peace, 

not light lamps.

 

4. Mother called me to tell me that they made contact with you.

“Huh, sure”. Before I hung up, she said, 

“He said you were all he missed at the hospital”. 

5. Distance makes the heart grow fonder. 

I’m only wishing for it to close. 

6. “Are you okay?” 

“Don’t ask” 

At least I’m honest. 

7. Bee has taken upon himself to fix me. 

He makes me close my eyes and pray. 

Later, I rebel by eating before he finishes saying grace. 

8. Polar opposites: 

He reads the Bible, 

while I smoke a cigarette and sip on cold tea. 

Mama would have approved. 

9. A house isn’t a home 

without the people you love in it. 

Mama, it’s been months now. 

Give me a sign to show me you’re here. 

10. I remember, the day you died. 

The sun shone brighter and 

the winds blew at your life’s pace. 

The sky lit up at your homecoming. 

11. Weeks have passed, 

regret seeps into blood like an infected wound. 

I should have returned home. 

12. Tick tock. Tick tock. 

The clock doesn’t know how much time has passed. 

Alone. 

13. I finally spoke about you today, 

and my eyes didn’t water. 

They didn’t even light up. 

You’re truly gone. 

I accept it. 

14. Today was his one year anniversary. 

I did nothing, 

but remember.

Author's Note

This was written over the period of a year, but I didn't add the dates. I hope it is easy to understand even without that.

Reviews

[Delmar Cooper]

Yes, it is easy to understand. No, it is hard to understand. That is, it is hard to accept even when it is understood.
thank you for writing and sharing this.