the struggle of emotion

Just a small piece i throw together still needs to be toned any advice is welcome please leave a review down below even its just to show you actully read this thank you

As i fill with pain
My body begins to drain
Iv fought this reaign
Let me try and explain
Why i fallow this chain

Its inhuman
Its a bit insane
And yet i remain
To contain it all with in

I shall refrain from giving in
I shall restrain these feelings with in
I shall regain what i used to be

I can not sastian these beast
I will not intertain this saddness in me
I shall not complain
I will not remain in this plane of misry

When it comes to misry
You better belive
Iv learned it to a degree
Its like a extasy to me

Its agony
Its apathy
Its tragedy
Its trickery
Like wizardy
No remady
No sympathy
Not peacfuly
Its inquiry
Why i company
Such a family of denial

Ha ha denial
Its like a down ward spiral
As it Goes down the aisle
It fills the viel
It takes a while
To compile
So i stand here and rival
The servival of this shame

Shame is soemthing you cant blame
Its not a game
It has no way claim a win
So dont blame it when you lose
These flames just cant be held within

But letting these feeling spill out
Is something i knew nothing about
I dont scream and shout
There is no dought
That Iv caused a drought
Iv gone without
The need to scout
The rout im heading down