Breaking Point

This poem is a plea from someone who is on their verge of losing everything

A sweet dream I once saw,

A beautiful laugh I once had, 

A caring touch I once got,

Now all lay in shambles,

Broken and burnt,

In the fires of rage and hurt. 

I do not know what I wish to say, 

All I know, is I am too tired to play,

These deceiving games as you may say,

Of pretending to be okay,

Because there is only so much I can take.

I have been driven to my breaking point,

Yet all I want is to fix my style

Maybe, if you held my hand,

And didn't leave me alone,

Maybe, if you didn't pretend to care,

And tried to see past the cracks on my shut door,

You would have seen me,

For as vulnerable as I have been,

Barely holding in the threatening tears,

Smiling through every pain and hurt,

All I ever wanted was someone,

Who could love me for all my flaws,

And tell me how perfect my imperfections are. 

I know that I hurt you,

Saying every rude thing that came to mind,

But I hoped for you to see the pain it caused me,

Just to say all of that, that night.

You could see your pain, 

And it's not you whom I blame,

It's my fault,

For being this complicated puzzle,

That I am.

 

If you are out there,

Hear my last call

My only plea that will forever be lost.

"It's never been easy,

Intentional ignorance my only sanctuary,

And now,

I am too tired to go on,

But it is not your fault,

Like the dawn breaks the dusk,

Your reply could break what this silence holds,

And today I ask you,

To take that one step,

For I am so scared,

In this dark place all alone.

I am scared to break beyond repair,

And my echoing screams to be the only proof of the life I lived,

 rippling with agony and despair...

Author's Note

Please review. :)

Reviews

[Neville]

angst or anger tis difficult to differentiate between the two.... but brimming with regret it seems... a ood write... N

[Color of the Iris]

This reminds me of my old writing style when I was in a horrible situation. I can painfully relate to the woe and constant struggle of keeping your cracked heart in one piece. I also know the damage that is caused when you're with someone who can't love you for who you are and you bend yourself until you're broken just to please them. I understand that all too well. Thank you for sharing and I hope and pray that your situation gets better like mine has. Best of luck, Iris. :)

[Moonlight]

I am in a better place now. Thank you for reviewing my writing. :)

[Teja]

I liked the pain and emotion in the poem.
The flow of raw feelings and emotions is good . Few lines are impressive . Nice job

[Moonlight]

Thank you Teja. I really appreciate your review. :)

[FaeryQueen]

Very, very open and raw.. I love what you put here, someone could learn something from this.

[Moonlight]

Thank you so much for reviewing. I really appreciate it. :)

[Emily]

'I know that I hurt you,
Saying every rude thing that came to mind,'

Love this line!
Keep it up!

[Moonlight]

Thanks Emily. I am glad that you liked it. :)

[lightning-born]

i like the way this flows, it's emotional and i can really feel the desperation in the tone. good job, it was a good read.

[Moonlight]

Thank you so much Lighting-born. I am glad that you liked it. :)