The Living Death

A memory that is special but still haunts...

 

Years have passed…

My hair is all grey.

But even today,

I remember you

Like it were just yesterday.

 

Before meeting you,

I never thought that world could love…

A prodigy as I was,

And people were around only because,

Of my skill and power…

 

But then you came along.

A smile for everyone you had,

But for me it was always a scowl,

That you would offer.

 

I often wondered why?

When everyone else pretended,

Why were you so honest?

Unafraid to express

Bold and beautiful…

 

And it took me years to turn,

That scowl into the most,

Splendid smile that the world could offer…

 A smile that reached to your eyes,

And personified in the wrinkles around your eyes…

A smile that was just for me and me alone.

My personal Elixir…

 

And, now no matter how hard I try,

I can never see that smile again…

Because now you smile only

In my mind.

A memory,

So fragile,

So broken.

 

For I am your past and he is your present,

And from the beginning,

We were never meant to be…

 

My power destroyed you,

Plunged you deep into despair

Into guilt that devoured you…

And my conscience would never allow it…

 

So you see, even when you don’t remember me,

Even if, to you, we never existed,

Our happy times would live,

Eternally in my mind,

An imagination…

A memory…

Tainted by the darkness of my fate…

 

But, I shall never forget

What we could have had,

If only, I were not me and you were not you…

 

A fragrance you showered over me,

Still lingers… even after you are gone…

You are a piece of me,

I wish I didn’t need…  

Because, living with your remembrance

Is a like a living death for me…

 

 - Shivangi Sinha

Author's Note

Please review. Thanks a lot..

Reviews

[Emily]

I loved it!
Well done!
Keep on writing!

[Moonlight]

Thanks Emily. :)

[Lizardo]

This good, this is very good from you Moonlight. I really like the way you portrayed the poem, its such a nice story I must say. The past is something we cannot forget, old faces, old memories, everything about seems to be nice, and we would like go there... but we can't, times change, people change, friends come with frauds against you, it's just the cycle of life I guess... The past can mean so many things, specially for an elder like you put it on the poem. Our grandparents have many many stories, like once I asked my grandmother about what was our family, who were they? and she started off by how times were different back then, how people would work a lot to keep there families safe and healthy instead of individuals means... it was pretty different.
Anyways, good poem moonlight, this is really good! :)

[Moonlight]

Thanks so much for your kind words Lizardo. It really means a lot. I am really glad you could grab the depth of the poem there. Thank you so much for reviewing.

[Lizardo]

You are welcome!

[kogomai1]

breathless... this poem takes us on a journey of love.. from the beginning of courtship... all the way to heartbreak... i loved the ending of the poem
"So you see, even when you don’t remember me,
Even if, to you, we never existed,
Our happy times would live,
Eternally in my mind,
An imagination…
A memory…
Tainted by the darkness of my fate…"
it speaks volumes... it really speaks about how people live after a break-up.... they never really get over it... your an amazing writer Moonlight

[Moonlight]

Thanks so much. I really appreciate your reading it. And it makes me really happy that you like it. :)

[eransodhi]

Oh wow it was beautiful. The ending was really heartouching
Because,living with you remembrance
Is like a living death for me
I love these lines.

[Moonlight]

Thanks a lot for reviewing my poem eransodhi. I really appreciate it. :)

[eransodhi]

No problem

[Daisy]

wonderful..... it really conveyed all the feelings great job

[Moonlight]

Thanks Daisy. I really appreciate your review. :)

[Writer at last! Sky ~]

A fragrance you showered over me,
Still lingers… even after you are gone…
You are a piece of me,
I wish I didn’t need…
Because, living with your remembrance
Is a like a living death for me…

It was a pleasure to read your feelings for love. You amazed me with the flow of your words..thanks!

[Moonlight]

I really appreciate your taking time to review my writing. I'm glad you like it. :)

[Writer at last! Sky ~]

Welcome friend!

[closed]

this is amazing
im surprised this hasn't been reviewed yet

like the highest chord of a haunting melody


-Dream

[Moonlight]

Thanks a lot Dream. It means a lot. :)