Run Away...?

Talks about how it feels to be judged as a child, to be side lined and to be walked over...

Run Away…?

 

Left all alone.

I wonder why,

They run away from me?

Is it because I eat too much?

But then I argue,

That I’m not fat…

Is it because I don’t have

What all of them had

Right from the beginning…?

So, I think about my dead parents…

But, that shouldn’t bother them,

I argue again…?

I wonder all the time,

But end with no answers…

Sitting by the swing alone,

In the fading glow of the dusk.

Wondering why they all run away..?

When they pass by,

They whisper stuff about me.

They think, I don’t hear…

But it all echoes in my ears,

Loud and clear.

They say that why don’t I just go home…

So that, their kids could play,

In the park,

By the swing…

But they don’t know,

How scary a home becomes,

When all it breeds is cold and dark loneliness…

In that place,

Where I’m to sleep

Lie the memories of my family…

The ones which I can’t collect…

Neither remember, nor forget.

So, I sit all alone, and

Ask myself over and over again.

Why is that, only

I have to prove myself,

Every other day…?

To give examinations,

Not those which I can study for…

But those which have,

No definite answers.

No means of fair judgment.

Left at the mercy

Of those grown ups,

That look at me with

Nothing but contempt.

Waiting to be judged,

To be punished,

For crimes I know not of…

They call me an outcast,

An eyesore,

A waste of space…

I wonder if my parents left

Because they felt so too?

I wonder…

Hiding my tears,

Growing up alone,

 Looking at others,

Longing to be a part of them…

Longing to be accepted,

To be myself, and,

Yet belong with them.

So, I keep trying.

And I keep asking…

Why is it, that they all,

Always,

Run away?

 

Author's Note

I don't know about how this has turned out because i was too caught up thinking bout it than wondering what i was writing in it... It' just that, I have myself gone through this phase...( ofc, the part about the parents... not that's not me...). I just thought of a scenario and the feelings somehow ended up mixing... Any way, please review. :)

Reviews

[jacob erin-cilberto]

what is really sad is how many kids can be really hurtful with what they say---and also sad is that some people get shunned for no good reason, or just because they have a different color or background or whatever, and people don't even bother to try to get to know them.

[Moonlight]

I agree... It's really sad that the society we live in is so judgmental. Thanks for reading! :)