sliding

I woke
 began walking
I stumble upon an angel
 I thought what luck
I asked her no questions
even still she told me to forget
but I'm not an angel
I said I don't have what i need to carry me
she said take her hand
 I did
grabbed hold with hope
but the emotions flowed
the higher I would go
and so I let her go
I drifted down to the earth beneath
I slid
every move sliding closer to home
is farther away  
everything he does
is everything i lose
my body filled with fire

I'm wondering why i ever started walking in the first place

just yesterday
I lay squinting up at the sun light pouring through the window
I prayed for an angel
I prayed
 and she came
but I just let her go
I didn't understand the love that was given
that it would be such a challenge
to free and forget and lose regret
I could only feel the hell of my pain.
convinced i could not be healed
so afraid of letting go of what has ruled for so long now
so I let her go

every move sliding closer to home
is farther away  
everything he does
is everything i lose

I let her go too soon
I'm not an angel i don't have what i need to carry me