anew

i've made a mistake. here's an awful poem about it

have you ever wanted to meet someone all over again?

fake an identity, erase the past

and start anew. 

i expected you to look through me,

but here we are, several hours after introducing myself

all over again,

under a different name, a separate location,

and you don't have a clue.

it's as if nothing ever happened, because as far as you're concerned,

nothing ever did.

it's just the way i hoped it'd be, or so i thought,

mid-text i realized, maybe not.

but on the other hand,

it's just a little fun.

a message here and there,

maybe stay acquaintances, it's not like you'd care.

just passing friends,

say we'll speak to each other soon and then never again.

what have i done?

is a friendship built on a lie worth none?

some?

nothing, nothing at all.

but i'm lying through my teeth on the very land i stand upon.

i want to believe we can make something of this silly mistake,

but in the event this thin ice shatters

and the lie breaks before dawn,

i'll be waiting to take the blame,

take it apart, swallow the shame

and turn the pain into art.

Reviews

[Esther]

this is really well written!! you're so good at writing. and i hope things turn out well for you