War Inside

How many people have to know of my secrets till I find one who'd get it? Fighting my way through self-injury is so hard

A troubled wind keeps flailing
Daunted by doubts and tears
Every decision weighs heavy
In the air I smell fear

Where to go and what step to take?
How much longer before I break?
Who to hold and who to trust?
Hasn't my heart been broken enough?

People leave and some stay
I meet new ones everyday
With whom to share and what to say?
What 'normal' things to put at bay?

Too many secrets
Silent mourns I couldn't say
The hidden scars stay patient
For a soul brave enough to hear the craze

How much longer should I pray
Waiting for 'my' person to come and stay
How much more of my heart is left
To risk and share before they run away

They've called me weak and some named me wrong
Others just keep staring
At the wounds I've kept for so long
The judgment, deafening; taking its toll

Reviews

[Nyida Strong]

Been there... I didn't need multiple readings to pick up on the heart breaking pain of not being able to trust, or not knowing who to trust with a secret like this. This work was very good and full of raw emotion. Good write.

N. Strong

[Havatara]

I liked it. Sometimes in confused me at first, but the second time I read it the poem made perfect sense. I liked the flow and the overall theme of the poem. Very well done.

[Poetic Beauty]

this sounds like "inner demons" to me. We all have them and struggle to understand them. It is hard to tell people deep problems. You will find the right person one day who will understand or try to understand the best they can and it won't matter to them.

[MusicJunkie66]

Wow, the flow was great! I loved it, great job :]

[Abhinav]

loved this poem
very beautiful

'People leave and some stay
I meet new ones everyday
With whom to share and what to say?
What 'normal' things to put at bay?''

i loved the rhyming on these......

[Emily B]

I understand a little about the fear that comes from how much to reveal about who I am . . . not every heart knows understanding. But still we have to try to be understood, it's what makes us human. The search, the lessons, the loneliness, the loving hearts that you will one day find are all part of the reason that you are here.