Dear Daddy

A father's disappointment can be a very powerful tool. -Michael Bergin

Was it so important?

To go and catch a high?

To forget about your family

And let it all slip by?

Was it so important?

To always prove your might?

To beat the ones you said you loved

All just out of spite?

Was it so important?

To ruin your daughter's life?

To break her down, to inflict pain

And cause her sleepless nights?

"Was it so important?"

Do you wonder when you're out?

In some dirty scum bags place

Popping pills into your mouth?

"Was it so important?"

I asked with that gun pressed to my head

When you cussed and swore and lost your mind

And threatened to fill me with lead.

"Was it so important?"

I screamed into your face

To leave behind the bond we had

And treat me like a disgrace?

It wasn't that important.

And there is nothing I can do

I tried to love and be a family

All that was missing was you.

Author's Note

This poem ties together with my other poem Dear Daddy.. They both are constructed the exact same way... Please read and review them both if you wish. Thank you.

Reviews

[Khaldun Shabazz]

Wow! This poem hit home on different levels. I hope you experienced the catharsis through writing this, because just reading it was very moving to me, especially the last line:
"It wasn't that important.
And there is nothing I can do
I tried to love and be a family
All that was missing was you."
Powerful pen!

[Katerina Felinova]

That you very much :)

[soliloquy]

This is very intense, powerful, and meaningful. Thank you for sharing this. And im sorry for this situation too.

[Katerina Felinova]

Thank you for taking the time to read!

[Wolfwind]

A powerful poem. It's one that resonates, in that i'm much further away from my two girls than I would like. Yet... to have that distance be out of addictions and their ripples... that's a hard road you must have walked. Seen to much, felt to much... all bad, negative, sad.
It's good to write about that which echoes with pain. It helps let us take those next few steps a bit easier, or so I believe.
I hope that you can continue to walk with your own personal strength and conviction, letting these memories be learning lessons and not anchors at sea. =)

Thanks for sharing a facet of your own diamond.
Aaron

[Katerina Felinova]

I am sorry that you're far from your daughters. I'm sure it's a strong ache you feel, like I felt being away from my father. But you are right, it has been a very tough road but I feel like it has sculpted me into the young woman I am today. Thank you for taking the time to read this. :)

[Wolfwind]

That ache is relative... Pain is relative... I miss them, that is for sure. Yet the pain doesn't compare to when I lost one. So I take this time away from them in stride and make the best of it. Taking the time to go back to college and get a better paying career is my current goal. That way I can make the changes necessary in the future to be around them more.
It's always a pleasure to read your ink. I like it for it's very real tone that it carries.

[Katerina Felinova]

I am so sorry to hear that. :( But it is good that you are trying to better yourself and your life for you and your family! I do want to go back to college and get a better paying career than I have now. It seems like an impossible goal but I will get there and so will you Wolfie. :)

[Catlen]

Excellent work! Very sentimental!

You need an apostrophe in "a father's disappointment" and "your daughter's" and then it should be "when you're out"

[Katerina Felinova]

Oh thank you. I wasn't really paying attention to grammar. I will fix it. :)