Dear Daddy

A father's disappointment can be a very powerful tool. -Michael Bergin

Was it so important?

To go and catch a high?

To forget about your family

And let it all slip by?

Was it so important?

To always prove your might?

To beat the ones you said you loved

All just out of spite?

Was it so important?

To ruin your daughter's life?

To break her down, to inflict pain

And cause her sleepless nights?

"Was it so important?"

Do you wonder when you're out?

In some dirty scum bags place

Popping pills into your mouth?

"Was it so important?"

I asked with that gun pressed to my head

When you cussed and swore and lost your mind

And threatened to fill me with lead.

"Was it so important?"

I screamed into your face

To leave behind the bond we had

And treat me like a disgrace?

It wasn't that important.

And there is nothing I can do

I tried to love and be a family

All that was missing was you.

Author's Note

This poem ties together with my other poem Dear Daddy.. They both are constructed the exact same way... Please read and review them both if you wish. Thank you.

Reviews

[Khaldun Shabazz]

Wow! This poem hit home on different levels. I hope you experienced the catharsis through writing this, because just reading it was very moving to me, especially the last line:
"It wasn't that important.
And there is nothing I can do
I tried to love and be a family
All that was missing was you."
Powerful pen!

[Katerina Felinova]

That you very much :)

[Tassawwur]

I like the way the poem proceed.From "Was it " to "It wasn't ".The feel of poem give disturbing picture of the home and as a reader you feel sad for the girl.Overall nicely written piece.

[Relic's Bare Trees]

I can see how both poems tie in together. Your story is a sad one that makes me wonder how you got through it all. Or should I say, how you are getting through it all? The flow is again very easy and tight. Good poetry Katerina.

[Justaguy]

Wow. A very sad tale, told brilliantly. I can not relate to those experiences, thank goodness, but I can understand them. Well done, for having the courage to write this.

[Katerina Felinova]

Thank you very much.

[Justaguy]

You are very welcome!

[Vria P Crow]

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"To forget about your family
And let it all slip by?"

This is so sad, Kat :( *hugs He still loves you even though his memory is crippled.

"To ruin your daughter's life?"

i hold you tightly
from this horrid

night inside the fright.

"In some dirty scum bags place
Popping pills into your mouth?"

Father s w a l l o w s the pills;
thinking of his daughter

g
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l
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he wanted the pain to go away!


"I asked with that gun pressed to my head
When you cussed and swore and lost your mind"

i was there sitting in my car
wondering if i could come save
you from him...

i cried
i died

g u i l t...

"To leave behind the bond we had
And treat me like a disgrace?"

you are not a disgace

h e is

but is too f*****g

s
t
u

BORN

to figure it out!

"I tried to love and be a family
All that was missing was you."

:(

the wolves
the bears
and

the lions are your family :(

love,
veronica

[Katerina Felinova]

Thanks Vee.

[Vria P Crow]

haha I'm so sorry this Review was so messed up. It is just this was personal so my words come up like word vomit.

[Violetta Alexis]

I am so sorry you went through this. This is a simplistic, yet emotionally putrid poem. Thank you for this share. I know these words must mean a lot to you.

-Violetta Alexis

[Katerina Felinova]

Thank you so much for reading!

[Violetta Alexis]

Of course.

[katie l]

Very touching poem! It makes me really sad. I'm sorry you had to go through that. Writing about pain is healing and I hope writing sharing this poem helped you in a sense! :)

[Katerina Felinova]

Thank you for your review. This is the first poem I have written about what happened and its been a while since the main incident that caused me all my anxiety now. So I too am hoping this can finally help me heal and move forward! Thank you again!

-Kat

[katie l]

Thank you for sharing!! And I hope someday you will be able to overcome your traumatic up bringing.

[L.u.c.a.s.]

An intense and vivid description, you have my thoughts and prayers!

[Katerina Felinova]

Thank you much for reading!

-Kat

[zainul]

Staying with the family and children as my first priority.
I can eat less but I can't part with my beloved children.
I feel really sorry that your suffering was caused by your father.
I am also glad that you can live independently now.
I hope you will overcome all emotional problems by your zeal and personality.

[Soul Fire]

Whoa, first of all I am sorry you had to.go through this and I hope its gotten better. I have not been in your experience or scenario, but my father causes me deep pain aswell. your pain in this piece rr
eally connected to mine...My father never beat me or hurt me physically, but his actions and mental/emotional abuse and other things he's done and continues to do...cause deep pain in my soul...once again I am sorry you had to go through this, I hope its better now and your stronfer jow an doing much better than then . veryemotional and deep piece full of raw emotion well done

[Katerina Felinova]

Thank you so much. Things have only gotten better because I stopped trying unfortunately. It was hurting me trying to offer my love and help to someone who wanted nothing to do with me. Even after all the physical, mental and emotional abuse I just wanted a dad.. BUT although it has screwed me up with depression, attachment issues and trust/relationship issues (sigh) I feel like going through this made me tougher and that I am now a stronger person because of it.

On a side note, I am so sorry you are going through something similar. If you ever need someone to talk to feel free to send me a private message.

--Katerina

[Soul Fire]

Youre welcome Katerina and thank you (: