Shawn

A Story by Shawn Ruschel

My bipolar.

I'm coming out of a cycle of my disease of bipolar. It felt like it was taking over everything. But I see a light at the end of the tunnel and am feeling better. I'm thankful to the people in my life. Everything is fine and I'm maintaining. If anyone else suffers through this alone it will be okay. When it first came on I felt like I didn't want to live anymore. Now I feel better. I also have CP so I'm dual diagnosed. If anyone feels the way I do you can write me on writers cafe. You don't have to feel alone. We can talk anytime you want. I know how it feels to be alone with bipolar. I can tell you everything will be okay. It will pass. I'm asking everyone on this site to keep me in their prayers. I think people are praying for me because I don't feel as bad anymore. I am under a doctors care. Even when I was in that desperate phase part of me stoll wanted to make it. In the Bible God talks about suicide being a sin. That stops me. I have supportive people in my life and I wish I had enough words to express my gratitude for them. I know God is the one to depend on the most. I've always been a fighter since I was a baby due to my CP condition. But I show people that I can do so many things. They told my mom I'd only be a vegetable. But they were wrong. I have accomplished many things. I have friends help my writ and type my words for me. It's hard for me to do everyday tasks. But I am the only once who controls my attitude. Some of my family members have inspired me, like my grandmother. Before my mother got ill she put me in a nursing home because she couldn't take care of me. I want everyone to know....life us never worth giving up on. I may not know everyone personally but I care about everyone in this universe. I respect everyone. Always respect things, people, or whatever environment you are in. When I'm not going through a cycle I am a very loving person. It took a while to write this but 8th is rewarding. I love you all and I love the sunsets stars beaches and everything of beauty. I hope this piece inspires you. God bless each and everyone who reads this. We can win.