Insomnia

"Insomnia" was featured and published by Culture Cult's magazine in October, '15. Check the link here: http://culturecult.in/wp-content/uploads/2015/10/CultureCult-October-2015.pdf#page=36

Insomnia

It’s terrible

I lie here wondering

why I’m awake, drunk again

The ceiling was screaming

at me

 

My teeth grind against each

other, back and forth…

back and forth

The jaw clenches hard

and moves slowly, steadily

against the top row

of teeth

 

My thoughts are flowing

through my brain at

the speed of light

Will I ever fall asleep?

How could I

 

She is asleep next to me,

snoring

I don’t mind, there isn’t

a thing about her I don’t like

 

My eyes are so awake and

dried out that they begin

to bleed

My legs manage to gain the

courage to lift my body off

of the sunken, shattered bed

 

I stumble my way into the

bathroom, visualize these

wretched eyes and begin

to rinse

The blood no longer runs

and instead a hybrid of

s****y sink water and tears

drain their way down my

cheeks

 

She walks in behind me

“Honey, are you okay?”

handing me a towel

“Just the usual”

“You should really see

a doctor,” she said for

the 100^th time, “you

aren’t sleeping and your

eyes are suffering from it”

 

“That sounds like a good poem”

“A*****e” she said

I could tell she was worried,

she looked unsatisfied and

went back to bed

 

I carry my head low into

the bedroom, where I apologize

to her

She apologizes too, only

because I did first

Will I ever fall asleep?

 

She jumps on top of me,

undressed herself

We make love for the first

time in weeks

It’s good, one of the best

Now it’s 4AM and I m more

awake than I had been

all night

 

She rolls us a joint, lights

it, and hands it to me

Laying my head back on

my pillow, I felt my thoughts

lessoning and slowing down

My crusty eyes get heavy and

begin to close

I never fell asleep

It was the best sleep

I never had 

Reviews

[Owen Aldin]

I really like the use of the title and how it relates to what happened in a positive way. Its a really good twist on how you have decided to almost describe insomnia. Its also an interesting mix of being very descriptive but almost like a novel. Personally I have not come across something like this before so it was a nice change!

[Shawn Hatfield]

Thank you for reviewing my work! Yeah I can see how it sounds more like a novel. I get a lot of my influence from Bukowski and Kerouac so that might play into it haha