Between Forever and Nothing
Not knowing where to turn
When all the sign posts
Have lost there words
Where looking up from
My own two feet and
Looking to the horizon
Is breaking all the rules
More than willing
But more than frightened
Ready to fight until the end
But losing that
Which is worth the fight
As I blind myself
To the horizon
I blind myself
To the reason
Now I have two desperate choices
Stay and hope
When my hope is condemned
Or up and leave
The one battle in my life
Truelly worth fighting for
To surrender in the one battle
That means anything to me
But win or lose
When this battle is over
It is over
Whether the right choice
Is made or not
There is only one shot
One chance
I find myself
Touching my face
Quite often these days
Im not sure what it means
Am trying to blind myself
Cradling the wound inside my head
Rubbing away the pain and guilt
Scratching feeling into my mind
I dont know what im doing anymore