Apology Poem #5

What the f**k is wrong with me
I hurt the people I care for most...
It's like a term of endearment..."If I didn't love you, I wouldn't break you"...
So true.

I can apologize to you until you believe me.
But I will never accept myself.

This is just another reason, why I hate myself.
I hurt you...I hurt the ones I love...

"You're so lovely when you cry..."

I'm generally an angry person, please try to see and accept that.

"You're so perfect when you lie..."

I'm not proud.

"You can be my crucifix..."

I really do love you, I promise.

"Hold me up to watch me die..."

I never lied about that.
I said some things I didn't mean...
But I never lied about how much I care.
I promise.

I don't deserve you.
I don't deserve s**t.
I hate this.
Hate me.
No one deserves anything as low as me.
I hurt everyone, I'm a disease. A plague.

I'm sorry.

Why can't I do anything right?

Author's Note

Italic words in quotes are lyrics from "Invisible" by Otep.

Tyler, I'm so sorry.

Reviews

[Lost]

Raw. Gorgeous.

[Wynona]

UGH!!! Like a freight train. Like a freight train.

What great writing. Thank you for sharing.

[Missy Moooooo]

Dear writer,
I enjoy reading your poems because you tend to help the reader(me) into feeling what you felt, which you did a great job of here in this poem. As for forgivness...that's up to him to forgive.