***

Something eats me up 

every night before sleep. 

It feeds on my loneliness, 

on my tiredness.

 Lack of everything that I need. 

There is a physical evidence of it - 

if I use the words of investigators. 

So many feelings - 

but so little chances. 

The soul becomes cold in the fall of the dark. 

Sadness reigns. 

So overwhelming - 

I surrender to it. 

Compulsory slavery - 

I can't shake it away.