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After A While You Relies
That Suicide Is Just
Another Step �" Away From Reality

You Can Erase All My Words
From The Wall
I Don’t Care
You Know Them Already.
Hide Them from Others
Hide Tide in Your Heart
As They Will Not Lose Meaning

And When I Talk To Silence
When I Smell Air
Or When I Just Sit And
Do Nothing
Nothing but Sitting
And Spitting In My Jar
Burning Sticks of Cancer
Warming Brain
I Will Not Be Fast
I Will Not Feed Rats
Within Me
And I Will Scratch Their Body
With My Nails
Not Allowing Them
To Do the Same
With My Body

I Have To Learn To Be Quite
To Shut the Doors
And Windows
Not to Show
Not Even a Glimpse
Face of Myself
Idiotically Happy Expression
Of Scared Face
Tired Face
Pending Face
Longing Face
Unmasked

And Start the Rage
Against The Patience
Against The Distance
Against The Longing
Against Yourself
Unleash That Rage
Don’t Go Gentle
Against that dazzling Light