Silence becomes her...

Just Mood writing....

Depression overcomes me

I fall once again into the abyss of silence

Sometimes pain of things unknown

Far worse then that which have been revealed

I want to write about it, about all of it..

I need to put down what the mind has erased

But I cannot even see, think or feel anything but blank

Dead scroll memories buried deep within taunt me

Subconsciousness that lingers just below the surface

Praying for a life preserver to pull me up

where I can once again breathe the air of truth

Oh to only quiet this deafening silence of a broken soul

For one dark memory seeds another and yet another

Until that is all my mind will allow

Thoughts like vandals desecrate my sanity

Time does not reveal that which is hidden deep within

And of what would revelations prove anyway?

I find myself prisoner to memories I cannot even recall

Strange how the flashes come in the dark spaces between

I long to be free and feel the sunlight on my face once more..

 

March 17th 2014

Author's Note

Thank you for taking the time to come read and listen.. I have been doing a lot of singing so wanted to share.. My friend Ron on the guitar..

<3 shallimarRose aka yellowRose

Reviews

[icelandicblue]

I have been to this place and it is hard to escape from this twilight life:

Time does not reveal that which is hidden deep within
And of what would revelations prove anyway?
I find myself prisoner to memories I cannot even recall
Strange how the flashes come in the dark spaces between
I long to be free and feel the sunlight on my face once more..

Gorgeous voice you've got. Loved the guitar work too. We're all holding on.

[shallimarRose]

Awww thank you for taking time to listen as well as read. I sing so much I figure if I am going to post songs it may as well be me singing them... lol hugs, sR

[Unknown Poet]

I love this hrart touching writing...
"unknown
Far worse then that which have been revealed
I want to write about it, about all of it.."

" I cannot even see, think or feel anything but blank
Dead scroll memories buried deep within taunt me
Subconsciousness that lingers just below the surface
Praying for a life preserver to pull me up"
I find myself prisoner to memories I cannot even recall"
And last sentence
"I long to be free and feel the sunlight on my face once more.."

Very expressive emotions , even I'm undergone this emotions and depression...

[Author Rucha Joshi]

Of all the poems I have read of yours so far this one touched my heart like none other.
It is sad. It is melancholic.
It is the eternal melody that sings to your heart when solitude shrouds your soul.
Beautiful and mesmerizing.
keep it up!

[shallimarRose]

Thank you so much. I have not been coming here for quite awhile My flashbacks made me ill and so I am mentally and physically exhausted. Seeking therapy now and hope to be back regularly one day..

[Author Rucha Joshi]

oh...Hope You get well soon!
God Bless :)

[jacob erin-cilberto]

i was here...know the feeling as you so aptly describe...such meaning...such visuals.

[shallimarRose]

Thank you Jacob for taking the time.. sR

[Einstein Noodle]

how intriguing is that place between .... the subconscious mind peaks through and awakens us with only feelings and vague impressions left ... we become irresistibly drawn to try to understand only to drift back under ... tentacles pierce through from all the dark places ... it can drive one mad ..
E.

[shallimarRose]

Thank you E...

[Mia C.]

This made me cry. Because I can completely relate to it. I'm so glad to see you're back, I love your work so much. You're one of my favorite writers. Please, don't ever stop writing, it's helping me through this dark storm.

[shallimarRose]

Mia I am truly sorry for not seeing this sooner. Thank you for your lovely comment feel free to Pri. message me any time you want to talk..

[Mia C.]

It's completely okay, I totally understand. Thank you.

[redzone]

You certainly have set a mood with this poem Shallimar .. a dark and brooding one .. and of course I love it. It may seem hard for some to know or understand this. "blankness " but it exists in silence and you express this with images and poetry. ~~redzone

[shallimarRose]

Thank you Redzone for taking time to read.. sR

[Jack...]

Well hello there my long lost friend. Very dark today but extremely well written. I loved the line, "Thoughts like vandals desecrate my sanity". Indeed . thoughts can ceratinly do that to a person. Very nice my friend.

[shallimarRose]

Thank you Jack...yes it has been awhile..