Falling away

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Falling Away

Like a meandering menace deep inside

Your words were jaded and maligned

Your underhanded insinuations and

Life alterations came with a clever hand

I eluded myself to think you would conform

My heart and soul left in the dust

Without warning the curtain came down

I silently awaited the choice you would make

The screams of my musings left silent now

When conscience touched the clouds is was too late

If only you had regarded the distance between us

I became overshadowed,  shackled by your memory

Still I fell into it dreaming of forever

My dreams now scattered to the wind

I was saddened by uncertainty

Still I pulled toward destruction

Only to become something other than myself

Craving more relevancy I begged

Thoughts of my life transformed

Like power emitted from words

We could have leapt into inherent brilliance

But you allowed digressions indecisive direction to prevail

And it was I who felt the weight of the story

Your truths crashing down around me

I find myself buried in the remains of my dreams

And I can finally see the troubled truth

You were never really here to begin with

© 2007 bj Smith

 

 

 

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Reviews

[jacob erin-cilberto]

this is so universal...to find anything that we believe strongly in not only gone, but having not been there in the first place...never having existed...just an illusion. it rips out our heart...and shreds our mind.

[shallimarRose]

Yes true Jacob.. Sometimes a person is not fully in the relationship.. They just make it seems so and it takes so long to for the other to realize .. If your not fully there you are really not there at all I think.. Thank you for reading.. xo Rose

[redzone]

"you were never really there to begin with" I don't think there is a woman on earth who has not known this realization, a painful truth... ---redzone

[shallimarRose]

Thank you redzone.. I believe you are right.. xo Rose

[ron]

:( That is very sad Rose. It makes me cry. Like the end of life :(

[shallimarRose]

Thank you Ron for reading.. xo Rose