Patiently Waiting

In the depths of my room, I lay and wait

Dreaming of revenge of the people I hate

But then I think of my nobility and it’s clear to me

Revenge is not part of my personality

 

In the belly of the beast I slowly decompose

Dead from the painfully lethal dose

I cannot fight it; it’s not in my blood

Wash me down with a sudden flood

 

Under the sun I wait as the water drains away from my skin

My blood turns into syrup, my muscles turn skeletal thin

My brain starts to boil in the vessel that’s my head

The vultures fly over me, waiting to be fed

 

In the dark alleyway, I lay on the street bleeding

As the time ticks by, I can feel my life is slipping

A knife dug deep into my back, there is no forgiving

I lay there already dead, from the world I’m slowly fading

 

 As the fire consumes my body, I just lay there silently

I can feel the pain as it keeps on burning me

I can feel its heat as it travels to my very core

They just watch me burn as they stand by the door

 

The lights go out; I’m alone in the dark

Six feet under, left without a spark

The monsters creep closer, I want to scream

Wishing this reality was just a dream

 

As worms feed, I’m eaten alive

Let alone thriving, I can barely survive

The soil and I, becoming as one

Slowly forgotten, remembered by none.

 

Am I not meant for this world, why does it hurt so much?

Is this world just full of blood lust, sickened by my touch?

Cast into the void, why is there so much hate?

Why in the shadows I must lie and wait?

Reviews

[AnonD]

This is absolutely amazing work!!! Very well done and it really hit home for me. The hate I have for people that have fucked me over. Very well written I just want to keep reading and reading.

[Shahrier]

thank you. its truly heartbreaking when someone you trust stabs you in the back as soon as you turn around. the irony of getting your heart broken when someone you love, someone you gave your heart to, stomps on the very thing that makes you who you are. but what can you do? took to the future and wait, for better or for worst.

[AnonD]

It happens to the best of us. Every single best friend I have ever had has betrayed me. That's why I just choose to have acquaintances now, I don't let people to to my life to the point where I'm able to be vulnerable to them. F**k people. I feel for you buddy

[Shahrier]

I guess i am luckier than i thought. only one person has ever brought me to my knees. its one thing to have brotherly love toward your best friend, and something totally different to love a girl with all your heart. she left me to be with someone else, both of us have been single ever since, but what hurt me the most is that she wanted me to suffer. talked about me behind my back, and when i was around, pretended i dont exist at all. ...its a long story, i wont bore you. she just used to mean the world to me, and after she left, i started writing poems. if you read my earlier poems, which i dont have on this site... im rambling on again. finally finished my homework for the night.

[AnonD]

Yea women can be crazy b*****s and exceedingly self absorbed. Coming from a girl here I know ;) it wouldn't be fair for me to whole heartedly agree with you though, because I haven't heard her side of the story (btw it's not boring at all, everyone comes to me for help, not that you are.. I'm just used to hearing people's issues and whatnot lol) but regardless, it's really hard to be stabbed in the back, by the person you confided in and trusted the most. The person you did everything for, (in my case the person you practically MADE) But they used you. And even if you were to be used they can at least be nice about it... And You know... NOT stab you in the back after? Idk, just my opinion. God I hate ungrateful c***s. (Pardon my mouth) maybe you need to select your women better. Just like girls always pick the a*****e, guys always pick the manipulative b***h. Not insulting you ex here (or trying to be offensive in anyway)... I'm just stating, based on what my guy friends always do then they come complaining to me and I'm like 'well duh I didn't give you the ok' lol.

[Shahrier]

youre right, you havent heard her side of the story. and well, you dont know me either. so i wont ask you to make any judgement on either of us. i am not like some of those guys ( i bet you get that alot) but i didnt pick her, she picked me and i didnt have it in my heart to turn her down because i had no reason not to. so i gave her the chance, and just thought she would realize how much of a a*s i am and just leave on her own, but she stayed and i fell in love. she basically leached off the popularity off me. used me as a stepping stone cause she thought she was good enough for this other guy, she just left telling me that she never liked me and that im just some loser. it did back fire on her cause he had no interest in her and well... now her friends hate her too because of the B**** she became from the over dose of power. that is the only revenge i needed. but it really hurt me when i saw her other side when i wasnt valuable to her any more, she just tossed me away. *sigh* its happened a long time ago. i never got another girlfriend, but i feel like i healed. now im just focusing on getting into a good college, and im set for life, so love can wait. happiness is much more important to me ^_^

[AnonD]

WHAT A F*UCKING CU*NT!!!!!!! You clearly don't deserve that bro I'm so sorry! This is like my life with my past 'sisters' Ava, maryna, Sarah, Kayla, zoey... Any girl that cares about social stature to that extent is just a device that needs a battery. I had to learn the hard way by trusting so many! Clearly I don't learn my lesson. Everyone secretly hates them but they think so highly of themselves that they somehow use those evil woman mind powers to convince everyone around them that they are cool. Of course they almost always get their karma handed to them by being firmly planted up they're assh*les but it's waiting for that moment that's agony. Which is the stage I'm in now. everyone kisses the floor they walk on like they're f*****g Greek goddesses or some s**t. And when I warn people how evil they are I'm the new s**t talker... UM HELLO? IM THE ONE THAT GOT STABBED IN THE BACK, ITS TOTALLY JUSTIFIED. Why can't I be the one to give them they're karma? Lol! they are all like Regina George from mean girls. and what's even worse is I fed them. I brought them with me to all those events and got them on guest list, among other things that would benefit their 'tittle', and they walk on me like a welcome mat used during winter. Not pretty. Wow look at me ranting. I'm sorry.

[Shahrier]

Don't worry, its nice when I get to connect with new people. Its a start of a friendship, in a way. Some people are just fake, while others go mad with the power they get. I'm usually not like those high school gold diggers and I do what I feel is right and what I enjoy. It brought me both pain and happiness. A great analogy I found on Facebook a long time ago that I think you'd like. "friends are like b***s, some are big, some are small, some are real, some are fake" its funny, but true.

[AnonD]

LOL I love that! Very funny.