Stuck

Can't get her out of my mind,

Heart stuck on past feelings.

A perpetual broken state,

For one that was never mine. 

Her and sorrow, companions,

Carrying both unwillingly.

Tears well in my eyes,

As I write these words.

Apathy, going through the motions.

Can't even go to the store,

Without seeing her eyes, her smile.

Happy couples, families, I want to vomit. 

Walking down the aisles, playlist loud.

Skipping breakup songs,

Love songs? I can't even. 

The mere thought, tears run down my face. 

My heart breaking all over again.

The hardest heavy metal, not soothing,

Anger, rage, hate, violence, chaos.

It used to calm me, no longer,

Only my own words can release the pain. 

Sometimes I get a few hours of relief,

Right now it's just hurt and tears.

It's too much to bear this agony,

Every second feels like an hour. 

But it's either write these words or kill myself...

Reviews

[Carlos Lorenzo Estrada]

Going through heartbreak is so powerfully emotional and draining. It's literally withdrawal from the heart, because love is the sweetest drug. Thank you for sharing your poem.