I Endure

you need a reminder of my love,

for you seem to have forgotten.

i've left you twice, out of pain,

both deep hurting, yet i returned.

twice i tried to give my heart to another,

and i couldn't pry you out of my soul.

i'm scarred, been beaten and i've bled,

you ARE forgiven, just can't forget.

my heart never wavered, not one bit,

even with my mean twisted mind, i loved.

words cannot express how much i care,

your emotional needs, so important.

you gave you heart to another,

the thing i feared most of all.

not to the person i imagined,

i wasn't watching close enough.

saw those 3 words and i hated them,

3 words and i hated you, him, myself.

i trashed your love like you trashed mine,

and tried to cleanse the pain with fire.

you love another, i see and feel it,

you are mine, i want you to leave him.

to have you for myself, in this selfish love,

but i can neither ask nor demand it.

i must have patience and wait for you,

so you can feel it on your own.

that i am the only one you want,

the only one you need to be with.

so i endure the pain and wait for your epiphany.