Words I cant say

Nothing comes out right, so I just stay silent nowadays..

I love you
Truly I do
This only started as a crush
But now I love everything about you

I love you.
From your smile to your eyes,
Your kindness and grace
I love how real you are
-I just wish you knew how real my love for you is...

I would die for you-
I do everyday
Choking on the words I cant say to you
They would hurt you too much
Painful words about a painful existence

I still think about you
Just about everyday
Every time I'm happy
---Or sad.
Every time I feel that I am ready to move on,
You say something that makes me fall in love with you all over again.

You're beautiful-
Both on the outside, and the inside
Intelligent, kind, wise, thoughtful
And so on.
You just call me crazy and try to change subject
-No kindness in your eyes for those words I cant call you.

I'm not strong enough
Cant pretend that I'm not broken
I just need to tell you how I really feel
You are so beyond perfect and I'm such a lost soul
I'm losing my hope in happiness
Its fading to the dull colors from before I met you

Why cant I tell you my thoughts?
Build you up before the world can tear you down
I was too late and too early
Right in that perfect spot to lose you...

And I'm stuck on the words I cant say
I cant convince you of your perfection,
Cant tell you you need no correction
Not able to convey the pain I feel
For the danger of putting you through that pain so real
I'm breaking on both sides of the same stick
-Guess I got the short end again

There's so much I want to say
So much I want you to know
Everyday is just another day for me to fail
Fail to convey, fail to let you know, fail to understand myself
Fail to share these words
--All these accursed words
These words I cant say...

I love you...

Reviews

[poetgurl]

so wonderful and emotional. like the flow and your thoughts.

[Coyote Poetry]

Gentle, wonderful and a natural flow of words and thoughts. I love you, hard to say sometimes. Fear of rejection? I like the need and the want of the words. Thank you Darian for sharing the amazing poetry.
Coyote