DisappointmentA Poem by Darian B.I know Im not the first to feel this way, surely not the last.
I have no joyful words to say today,
No hopeful poems for a broken heart. I use to think there was always light at the end of every tunnel --But now I'm not so sure How can light penetrate the darkness buried behind years of masks? How can light come down to meet me in my misery? And how can there be light at the end of a tunnel That only goes down --Beneath layers of hurt? I've become a disappointment. Where am I supposed to turn when I'm cornered by brick walls? I had my chance I threw it away. I could have risen above myself, Proven that I'm better than they said I was Proven to myself, proven to my friends --Proven to my enemies But I didn't I did exactly what they said I would- Time and time again and now I'm just one big disappointment I'm left with a question, Asked by every person put in my shoes: Is it braver to hide the pain Let others live their life, deal with their own problems --Or is it braver to admit that Im broken? Lean on someone else until I can get back on my own two feet -And then be the shoulder for another. I choose the latter But I have no one to lean on, Nowhere to go One more disappointment.. Ive never been for suicide, I will never even think of it But for those who think it's merely cowardice, An utter cop out on life, You've clearly never felt alone Truly alone, with no one to turn to -And nowhere to run --Broken everywhere; heart, mind, and spirit See, Ive never been one to cry But then again, Ive never really felt safe to Never had anyone I cared enough about Never anyone to care enough about me So this is me, in my hour of need admitting I'm weak, admitting I'm not as strong as I pretend asking for help from those who understand I'm sorry I cant create beauty today I'm sorry I cant be there for those who need me I'm sorry that I'm not strong enough to fight this myself I just need a sign, a show of faith That I'm not such a disappointment... © 2016 Darian B.Author's Note
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3 Reviews Added on October 25, 2016 Last Updated on October 25, 2016 Tags: broken, no hope, searching, disappointment AuthorDarian B.AboutThis place is my home of understanding. The place I go when I want to understand and be understood. I live in darkness but try to exude light, thank you for stopping by :) more..Writing
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