Letter from CrazyA Poem by Darian B.Brain thoughts at one in the morning
Hey you,
Do you remember me? Will you ever truly remember me? -- Or am I just one more friend we say we remember, Yet forget what they meant where it really matters. Probably. That's all I have ever been. Did I ever change your life profoundly? The way you did mine? -- Or was I just convenient company... I guess it doesn't really matter anymore... I guess I don't really matter anymore, Then again... -- Did I ever? I'm sitting here at 1 in the morning thinking about you, It's become my daily ritual. I try not to, I know I shouldn't, It's not good for me, Nor fair to you. I can't help myself though, I can't help worrying how you are and if you're ok... I can't help thinking that you are probably still up too. You never could sleep well at night, I remember trying to stay up with you so you had company through the night I remember always falling asleep first And you texting me at 3 each morning because you woke up... Against your will And so against my will I stay awake at nights, Not daring to fall asleep, -- That would allow me to stop hurting. And so I write this poem. Now I know this isn't so much a poem As it is just the tears from my eyes mixing with my bleeding heart To form broken memories shaped like words on a page... -- I'll call it one anyway, Much like how I call what we had a best friendship. When in reality, you were the best thing that's ever happened to me, And I was just a thing that happened. I just wanted to tell you how much you meant to me I think you must have fixed about a billion things about me Whilst I couldn't even fix one thing about you. Never mind the fact that you only have one thing broken, --And I still have a billion more. I'll save your broken thing for a different guy, One who means to you what you meant to me. If you had wanted me to fix it, you would have allowed me to borrow it If only for a second. But I'm past all that now, That's what I've been telling myself anyway... It's easier than accepting that I'm still bleeding internally So when I die because I've been empty for so long --My heart just gives up and leaves... Can I ask you one dying request? It's the only thing I have ever wanted for you.. Please, be happy. © 2016 Darian B.Author's Note
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8 Reviews Added on July 9, 2016 Last Updated on July 10, 2016 Tags: Letter, love, no sleep, missing you AuthorDarian B.AboutThis place is my home of understanding. The place I go when I want to understand and be understood. I live in darkness but try to exude light, thank you for stopping by :) more..Writing
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