Mask

There are moments in life when we are forced to introspect and honestly answer questions about who we are. Completed 2012.

I gave so much and still the only thing I ever earned was a memory

Yet I gave so little and still the only thing I ever earned was everything

I'm quickly learning that I'm only worth the lies that I tell myself

And I lie to myself now but I'm as intentional as these words

But I'm quickly believing the things that I told myself I would never believe

I like the convenience of knowing I can convince myself of anything

I was taking from her the whole time without her even realizing

She thought I was sweet, she thought I was selfless, but I know in the back of her mind she thought it was weakness

She was a bow playing me like the strings of a violin, but she didn't know that I was the musician, playing with such elegance

She never saw my darkness; no one can, just like she thinks no one can see her's

I'm going my way, cutting my ties, living those lies

Yet I'll pretend to do something completely different from behind my mask

Reviews

[Thescientista]

This is my favorite. It's hard to deem yourself a liar. Very hard to admit. But that's the first step, right?

[S.A. Kurzweil]

You're absolutely right! What are the things we tell ourselves to make everything "okay", even when they're bald faced lies? We all do it, but admitting those truths brings a level of cynicism with it.

[Cherry Pepperweb]

It's hard to know who to be in a relationship until we know who we are. Then it's easy, we just be ourselves.
This was so heartfelt, it really moved me.

[S.A. Kurzweil]

Cherry, so glad you liked it and you make a very good point! One can't truly love if it’s under a false pretense. Until two people are mutually transparent with who they are, a relationship is always destined for a quick end.