gaining perspective

I'm still laying under LED white lights in an over-

proud apartment

Unable to push flat that knot in my throat

Tracing that feeling

back to you you

The fear crashes into me and enters into me

like a traveling spirit would to haunt

I can't sit around hating you. I adore you.

I'm gonna do what my mother taught me how

to do and pretend like nothing happened just

so I can be around you

You're never going to be my savior

You'll never be my good choice

You'll always be an obstacle

because we live arbitrarily

I was

with a moment to breathe today

To wake up early and be alone

Reviews

[jacob erin-cilberto]

oh my....this immediately brings to mind Sylvia Plath and how she still regarded Ted after they split, as she still admired his work so much...and a part of her still loved him and wished they were still together...took some time for her to adapt to being alone...and in the end...he still haunted her enough that she took her life.
yes, we do live arbitrarily....that is true,
i like this...
j.

[Brilli B]

This is a good write, I loved 5th line with because we live arbitrarily. It is true about how sometimes the truth hits you but you don't know how to face it after you've loved the person for so long.