Maybe Later

A Poem by sL

It is not the right time

right now

maybe later

I still have time

It's too much responsibility

I strive to let sensibility overrule desire

It would never feel right anyway

These excuses keep me warm

they keep me self-righteous

just like I like to be

These excuses,

you see,

I'm not using like regular excuses,

because this

deep-seated, intrinsic appetite

is unlike regular desires

So please

all know--

This decision is hard

and not just for a woman,

I wouldn't think

I've been an aunt for most of my life

I am a teacher

I'm a good teacher

the kind who inspires kids

and is changed by them

I teach them about metacognition

and how to question everything

I teach them to propose ideas

and how to defend those ideas

I inspire them to create

and teach them that it is safe to create

and that it is expected to create

Dear Mothers My Age,

I'm not the jealous type

Envy,

I find,

is always one-upped by

sincere happiness for you

and I'm truly glad you've put

the best parts of your soul

into your child

Your child cracks me up

He makes me think

He makes me question everything

He inspires me to create

Thank you for sharing him with me

But for me,

It's not going to happen soon

If at all

For me,

I can't justify it

I'm kind of crazy

I'm figuring me out

I'm already taking up too much space

on this beautiful Earth

I don't trust her any way

She's quite bigger than me

She'll start to shake

and start to explode

and I couldn't keep a baby safe against her

Maybe later

Not right now

© 2016 sL

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Pryde Foltz

The value of a woman, any human, is not based on her ability/choice to reproduce. There seems pressure on us to reproduce our genes but needn't be. As your write clearly show what is important is the love one reproduces. As a former school teacher and now a mother I found a lot to identify with here:) Thank you:)