How Pathetic That Now Sounds

I didn't write this. But, my friend did. The night that I saw it and asked her about it, she gave me the best advice that I had ever gotten, the most hope I have ever believed in.

how pathetic that now sounds.
the word "love"

its so over used.

why is it that we use it so much,
but yet we hate so freely?

but then,
if we love everything,
why do we change,
to be loved?

is it because we search for something more?
something more than our societies definition of "love"?

i mean,
what does it mean?

...nothing.

it is a word left without value.

...just like the way my heart now feels.
do i no longer hold value to you?
am i no longer worth even the simplest of gestures?

you used to "love" me,
in the definition of our possessed world.
but now,
i even doubt that.

you see...
i loved you.
i loved you deeper than what words could describe,
because you were you.

but now,
i no longer know who you are.

i will always love you, yes,
but not from the depths of my heart,
only the conventional ways of the word.

sometimes people are only placed in a person's life for a short while,
they are only there as long as they are needed.

i can clearly see that i am no longer needed,
and though my heart will not allow me to think it,
maybe your grasp on my heart was meant to expire...

but whether time has expired or not,
is not my decision...

however, 
i can no longer postpone the inevitable.

i want to start new,
and not have the lingering ghost haunt me.
i want to open my heart to another,
just as i did to you.

but even as i create a new account,
i hope in my heart that you accidentally find me...

because i will always love you.
i will always be here for you,
as you once were for me. 

 

Reviews

[*** Hey Jude***]

Such a true, and heartfelt write. The word love is so misused, and abused. I believe that love is alive, and if it is true, and real it can survive eternities.
I feel the pain you describe, as I also have felt betrayed by love.
Love is timeless, it cannot be put in a box, or labeled. It is more than I think we can even imagine. I hope your heart is soothed, and as time goes by love will find you! ~ Jude

[A Red Red Rose 4 U Luv]

Love in word form does mean nothing, it is the emotions and actions that come along with it that make it worth so much more!!

[xXxCynicalWarsxXx]

I don't know what to say other than that the realization we come to is a powerful thing. Love is an over used word, just as happy is, but it's an emotion we give, we feel, we live to find through the years.