Keep on living

I'm trying to live
Can't seem to get it right
The letdowns
The losses
The dirty double crosses
All get in the way
They think they're my bosses
But NO!
I won't have it!
Fought too hard not to grab it
Like a guitarist, I'll tab it
Beautifully performing, I'll nab it
In its heart, I will stab it
Let life's blood work its magic
Showing all but what's tragic
Just trying to live?....
I'll keep up with that habit