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a girl who got pregnant and doesnt know what to do

getting pregnant in high school is not any girls dreams.  Some girls think they are ready to be a mom.  others think they arent.  some girls are just under too much pressure to say no. 

i hate to admit it but im one of those girls. 

i was dating a guy his name was *allen* we had been dating for about four or five months which now i under stand that was too soon to have sex.  after i did it, i was a little emotional after that.  *allen* and i were still happy not even thinking of what the consequences were.  This was at the beginning of october.  I had been feeling kind of sick for about a month.  I went took 3 pregnancy test.  the first said positive, the second, negative, and the third positive.  so i finally went to the doctor on my birthday after school.  I walked into the doctor they took a test there, and the doctor came back and said i was in deed pregnant.  i really didnt know what to think.  it was my birthday, yeah what a birthday that was.  finding out i was pregnant was a shock.  i was scared to death i didnt know what to do.  for the first three months was nothing but morning sickness which was hard hiding it from my family.  i was scared at first and only told a few people, but after my sister found out she pretty much told everyone.  so many emotions have gone through my head.  i have had depression emotions, happy, sad you name it i have had a little of everything. 

after i had told *allen*  i was pregnant, he didnt want anything to do with me or his baby.  A month later i found out that he had a 1 year old little girl and the same girl is having his second baby the month after i have mine.  could you imagine how hard that would be for me to deal with.  I am going through this pregnancy with little support.  I have a few friends and some church family.  my family is not give me any support whatsoever.  the only people i need right now are the people who love and care for me and this unborn child.  im in my fourth month, and its still hard but i just keep think in my mind, in july 2011 i will finally be holding my precious little baby in my arms. and i will never let my little miracle go=)