La Douleur ExquiseA Story by moongirlla douleur exquise - the heart-wrenching pain of wanting someone you can't have.“La Douleur Exquise” By: Selene Theia C. Samson It was the long awaited day that changed my life. The
wedding took place in the summer, under a shining blue sky that illuminated the
carefully selected pink roses and bright tulips that finished every row of
chairs. The seats were full of people, old friends, acquaintances, family�"each
and every one of them present for at least one person in particular. The music
began to play and the ceremony got right to a quick, prompt start. Hushed whispers and surprised gasps were heard all around as
the door opened, revealing the bride. She was extremely breath-taking, a white veil obscuring her
face, donned in an ivory white sweetheart neckline wedding dress with intricate
designs that touched the ground, as her hair cascaded down her back in soft
waves. The white fabric, a stark contrast against her dark tresses,
made her look like ethereal, like a goddess. All eyes were on her as she walked through the aisle,
everyone drawn to her petite figure as she gracefully made her way to the altar,
where the groom was waiting for her. The groom was also donned in fancy
clothing, wearing an expensive-looking white satin tuxedo, his hair neatly
slicked back, all prepared for his big day. He was staring at his bride with eyes filled with love and
happiness in his eyes, a wistful smile in his face as he watched as if he was
enchanted, at the woman of his dreams. The church organs started to play the traditional wedding song,
filling the atmosphere with joy and chatter as people wearing fancy clothing
exchanged pleasant greetings to each other. As the woman went to the altar, he gingerly lifted her white
veil and made intense eye contact, and it’s as if the world around them didn’t
matter at all. It was like a scene from
a movie, except it wasn’t. This was reality. It was a wedding but it felt like I was attending a funeral.
"You may now kiss the bride.” My breath hitched, it was as if time stopped for a moment. Memories
came flooding in. I recall the first time we met, how his eyes sparkle like
millions of stars in the night sky, how he brushes his fingers through his hair
as he laughs merrily, the way he greets me with that cheeky smile of his, his
pearly white teeth showing, the faint scent of his perfume that oddly reminds me
of sunshine and fresh-scented pine and honey; I could vividly remember the loud
pounding of my heart rendering me deaf, my mind racing a thousand thoughts, the warm sensation tingling within me as he
speaks to me with such fondness and familiarity, how his hands fit mine as if
it were made just for me. Like my hands were moulded and crafted to fit within
his. It felt like bliss, a sweet dream, destiny fate, name it, it was mine,
mine to cherish. My passionate heart was beating more and more for this man who
fit so well with me. But I was proven wrong once again. He wasn’t mine to keep.
His heart beats for her, and her
only. The feeling in the pit of my stomach rendered me breathless,
the heart-wrenching pain coursing through my body threatening me to let it all
out as I clenched my chest, letting out shaky breaths, trying to calm myself
down. Where I was standing had a clear view of the altar and even
though I wanted to look away during this moment between the newly weds, I
forced myself to take a good look and engrave it into my memory, so my feelings
will die once and for all. Their lips lock, symbolizing the new connection between bride
and groom and all I can do is sit there and feel a part of my heart shatter in
so many broken pieces, relentlessly. I felt nauseous. So, that’s it. The end. I shook my head, trying to shake away all depressing
thoughts as I desperately tried hard not to cry. My friend nudged me by my
shoulder, “Hey, are you alright?” I sent her a weary smile as I replied curtly, “Yeah, why
wouldn’t I be? My sister is getting married to the man of her dreams.” A thought then hit me. Maybe it would’ve been better if I
haven’t met him. Maybe then I wouldn’t have felt this much pain, trying so hard
to grasp something so unattainable. If only I hadn’t been so foolish to fall in
love with the same guy my younger sister loves. But then when I stop for a moment and think about a lifetime
where I hadn’t met a guy like him, who barged into my life, uninvited and
didn’t even bother take his shoes off�"and I couldn’t for the life of me imagine
going back to the life I had without his presence, basking into his warmth�"a
life without experiencing the feeling of falling in love, the pure joy and exhilaration
filling my senses as he painted my blank canvas with bright, vivid colours. He
was like the morning sunrise after dusk, filling up the dark abyss that was me
full of blissful smiles and joyous laughter. Oh, how bittersweet love was. One moment you feel complete,
then the next you feel utterly empty. It makes you, but it also breaks you.
It’s everything you’d ever want and more, until it becomes something you’d
never want to feel. How foolish I was. “Hey,” My friend spoke gently, knowingly, as she turns to
look at me, “Did you ever regret it?” I immediately knew what she was talking about. “I don’t,” I whispered under my breath, my tone hoarse, “But
I’m happy for them.” I know in time I’ll get through it, after all, the dawn is
the darkest right before sunrise, and as quickly as it came, it leaves. © 2020 moongirlAuthor's Note
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6 Reviews Added on September 7, 2020 Last Updated on September 7, 2020 Tags: heartbreak, wedding, shortstory, romance, love, grief, moving on, sadness, unrequited love, angst AuthormoongirlQuezon City, NCR, PhilippinesAbout- named after the moon goddess Selene - INFJ / Scorpio / '02 - my hobbies are making art, travelling, watching movies - I find beauty in tragedy & angst. It'll be a common theme for my stories HAH.. more..Writing
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