Attraction

How can two people become more closely connected or come together? It all has to do with attraction and appeal. But what if I can't find any man (no I don't like women either) attractive? I do not even feel like dating someone because after just a few pictures or text messages I see that the person does not suit me. Anyway, it's best to meet someone in real life, but even that can be difficult if you are always in the same social environment. I am a perfectionist, and I strive to maintain this image within my world, which sometimes makes life unnecessarily difficult for me.  The most important thing for me is that my partner is smart, so looking good doesn't help if this is not the case. He should hold good values, should not smoke or have tattoos. I like a cultivated lifestyle, etiquette, and no partygoer. He should do his tasks accurately like I do and knows exactly what he wants to have in life. Most men in their 20's or early 30's are out of the question. I don't need a little boy, I need a man. I didn't have many dates, but when I had one it was usually seriously. As a teenager, I also had one night stands, because I separate feelings and sex, but I am not interested in that anymore. I would love to have nice dinners, a glass of wine or beer on the couch, and good conversations. I wish to be there for each other, be honest, and make a good team together. So, to put it in a nutshell: I will probably be alone forever. Because I'd rather be alone my whole life than be with someone for whom I have no feelings. But how can it be that everyone else is constantly entering new relationships? They always say it is the big love until the next partner comes. It takes me years alone to find a person I find interesting, and then it doesn't mean that the interest is returned. Maybe my demands are too high, but why should I lower them when it is a decision that accompanies me every day? I can count on my fingers the men I have been attracted to in my life. I didn't use to be so picky when I was about 16 or 17, I was wild, loved parties, and I chased after what or who I wanted. Today I am not even interested in living the single life. Sure I like good sex, but now I can only imagine it with a man who really interests me. My life is more perfect alone than with the wrong man. I function better and am a better person when I am surrounded by the right people. Why give up this piece of control for the wrong man? All those men who try to convince you that they are so great and that you should just give them a chance. Why does society assume that you cannot be happy alone? Of course, everything is better when you're together but I also like to be alone and independent... and still, it would be wonderful if I met a man again who I find attractive. There is nothing more beautiful than the first meeting, the first kiss, the first time sleeping together...and with the right man it feels like the first time even after many years.