Something inside

I'm a people pleaser

I like to help 

I enjoy it when someone needs me

I'm energetic when I have a task

But people take advantage of that

and it harts when I realize it

and I can't change who I am

so my energy slowly fades 

and something inside me breaks

I'm an adaptor

I like the type of music the person in front of me likes

I enjoy the activates they enjoy 

I go to the places they like to go to

but they don't enjoy what I like

and when I'm doing something I like, I'm always alone

and it hurts, being called weird 

and I can't change who I am

so my personality slowly fades

and something inside me turns to ash

I'm a caregiver

I'm the type who'll listen and try to help

I'll share your tears, your joy, your pain

I'll keep a secret, I'll give you a shoulder to cry on

But I'm no open book and no one understands

that smiling all the time hurts, when you are hurting inside

that being needed and not wanted is amazing... until YOU need a shoulder to cry on

and it hurts when no one gives you that shoulder, so you push your feelings aside

"they don't know" you say... and you push your feelings aside

and I can't change who I am

so my feelings slowly gather

and something inside me drowns