sleep

sleep is fickle

and fleeting.

i dream violently

and carve holes in my skin.

when i awake

with my hands dipped in my own blood

and my covers tossed aside 

i wonder,

when did i become this way?

Author's Note

sleep feels like a weak title, as coming up with title is my weak spot. any ideas as to what a better title would be?

Reviews

[Mac]

The poem makes me think that the speaker was detached during their self-violence and only realized their actions after the fact, as though the pain had a delayed reaction.
The surgical tone of the poem makes me think you might want to incorporate that into the title. And maybe the word "dream" since the speaker is in their own world. Just words for thought.

[ANTO]

In the programming world there is a condition called NOT - it was used extensively in the 1990s after sentences in everyday language too - people would say "You look cool. NOT" - I blame Friends the series,
Anyway I was thinking you could write NOTSleeping but in the programming code it is !SLEEP
(The exclamation mark at the beginning of a statement means not), so !SLEEP is my offer of a title

The self searching nature indicates to me a want to understand and repair which is as far from the despair imagined by 'cutting' by most people. Again, hope is in there if we look for it
Thank you for sharing AH