safe inside the pain

 

All this alcohol I'm drinking to battle the effects of reality

And I swear it's not working

Just look at me just look at me

All the hearts are falling and all my friends are breaking

My pulse is racing and the blood feels cold in my veins

When you’re not here where am I

Lying on the floor in my own vomit

This is the life I chose to deal with you

Just one more blackout, one more blank night,

Just one more blackout

 

Choking breathing bleeding

Every night I'm all alone

While you’re the warmth in his bed

I freeze alone

Hoping praying bleeding

Pleading out my soul

Just begging for you to come back home

Just begging come back home

 

All this pain I'm creating

To battle the effects of reality

And I swear it's not working

Just look at me just look at me

Feeling safe and warm inside the tears I'm crying

Feeling regrets for the scars I'm carving

Into my arms my mind and my soul

Just drink the pain away

Just another black out, one more blank night,

One more blackout

 

Choking breathing bleeding

Every night I'm all alone

While you’re the warmth in his bed

I freeze alone

Hoping praying bleeding

Pleading out my soul

Just begging for you to come back home

Just begging come back home

 

All the lies I believe

To battle effects of reality

And I swear it's not working

Don’t look at me, don’t look at me

Hollow, broken, frozen

My heart, I believe is dead

Nothing more keeping in this world

Since you won't come back home

Come back home

 

Choking breathing bleeding

Every night I'm all alone

While you’re the warmth in his bed

I freeze alone

Hoping praying bleeding

Pleading out my soul

Just begging for you to come back home

Just begging come back home

 

Your not coming home

I guess I knew it all along,

but I needed something to believe in

Something to grieve for

This life can be so tough and I'm safe inside my shell

Safe with the scars and pain

I create for myself

Reviews

[Philosophile. (Maddy)]

I don't think drunken blackouts are too bad, in fact, sometimes they are quite fun! Does that make me sound insensitive? I hope not! But I could feel the emotion in this, and the resentment of your own choice in regards to how to handle the pain. Basically, I enjoyed it.