Him

A Poem by victoria

He's all I think about I cant help it and no one understands

I cant say no to him I cant stay away from him its exhausting cause I don't want to feel this way about him and I've made that very clear but I just cant resist him he's like my own personal drug. and it sucks cause he knows that so he uses it to his advantage. he's in my head 24 f*****g 7 and I hate it I hate that I cant get away for him for more than a second. and I'm such an idiot cause I wanna be with him so badly but he doesn't even give me a second glance unless he wants sex of course and ill let him like I always do, use and abuse my body like its his cause he knows he owns me he knows that no matter what that ill give into him because he knows he's the one that destroyed me and he knows he's the only one to fix me, but he wont cause I'm nothing more than a warm body to him. but god I want more I want his love his real love but I don't even know if he's capable of that I don't think he even loves himself how could he love me a girl so broken that he knows ill fall to my knees if he even gives me a smile. the way I feel about him is unreal. my heart broke when I found out about another girl I could literally feel my heart in my stomach I physically felt the heart break. and what did I do, I let him back into my bed. kids don't listen there are no monsters under your bed just he ones you let into your bed.