Admission for One

I've been on this ledge for 15 years

Reality gurgles as if I've drowned 

Like the ocean I rush to kiss the earth

To come crashing down

Shards in an iridescent slow-motion 

Each one a memory I long for

Screaming the way that I came out 

And ending abruptly like a puff of smoke

Sadness is obsucurity is danger

Like cigarette to a wildfire to grief

If I ever will

Like I never was

If I ever could

Like I never had

If I could burn all the way down

To light the universe for one moment

And be forgotten forever after

I'd finally tilt forward.