I couldn't do it

I HAD TO DO IT!!!

YES, i was selfish

I had to do it though

i hope you understand

They said to not blame myself

It haunts me, the way you suffered

Laying there on that hospital bed that night

I saw the pain you were in

It was not time for you to go.. 

Not in my eyes

I wanted to keep you alive 

I wanted to tell you that it was going to be okay 

you could get stronger

you could over come this

I held your hand as it got harder and harder to breath

YES i was selfish

I couldn't do it

Couldn't let you go that night

I will forever be haunted by that night

something i could have saved you from

you wanted to go

you begged me

you could hardly breath....

It was your time to go

but i held you back 

forever i am so sorry

you were always strong

You could do this

get rid of the illness

or was it the lack of life you wanted to live?

were you giving up? 

You couldn't give up

It was my fault you stayed on this earth a little more

It was all my fault and im so sorry

i should have let you go....

you would have been better off

I hope the angels love you

Reviews

[Cassiopia Summers]

From the heart, and that's what matters. Great piece, and I'm sure if this is true, they forgive you. :)

[Mauricio Montoya]

Very touching piece from the heart, thank you for sharing.

[Sugar Plum ♥]

i feel so sad from this poem!

[Graceful]

awwwwww. oh my gosh. it is so sweet. oh my gosh i actually have a tear in my eye and i'm not lying. AND OF COURSE THE ANGELS WILL LOVE THEM!!!!!

[Nothing Personal]

Reminded me of Euthanasia and the legalities of it and what not. Well this one's a tough call. Well if Death is imminent and certain and holding it back, causes just a bit more pain it seems its better to let go. But you never know. Life thrives on hope and its possible , every little tiny chance of living is possibly worth in favoring life over death.
More on the poem's lines, it is a deep one. The agony, the pain of being unable to let someone go is portrayed perfectly. And the regret. For delaying the inevitable. For aggravating the pain. Really GOOD one !! Great work....

[Coyote Poetry]

It is very difficult to let someone go. leave us wishing to done different things. To say a few more words. A very sad poem. Each of us will learn this pain often in a life. A excellent poem.
Coyote

[JanieB]

This is powerful with with emotion. Well done.

[Wondering Mind]

very sad...

[sarah]

This is very sad!! *tear*

[MuSe Ampoule]

Wow, girl. Sad yes, but it speaks of so much more...regret, remorse and enlightenment. Acknowledgment that begging the dying to stay around is a selfish want, that most often is only seen, if seen, in hindsight. Prolonging agony...a great introspective piece.

Good job!