more then just a poem

It was my fault

I did it to you

how do i take it back?

Back to the day we were happy

Happiness hasn't been seen around for awhile

A while ago you and i had something

Something that i would do anything to get back

Your love.

You trusted me with it, to hold it and cherish it

I only looked

Looking wasn't suppose to turn into something more.

I can't say I'm sorry

Not that i don't want to but i can't

How do i find the words

Words to heal the broken of hearts 

Not shattered but burned up by the fire you had for me?

How do I live? knowing what i did

I vowed years ago never to be like this

The sleepless nights we have, the bad dreams you get,

Running after you haunting you down the street

I want to hurt

Hurt like you do

Make me

Make me feel the hate and anger you feel 

Feel for me every day

I want to be torn limb by limb 

cut into with that bloody knife

hang me up and let me bleed out

dying inside like you did

I just want to say i am sorry

But it wont help 

I feel so numb half the time

Don't know what to say to you

I walk around half dead in side

Crumbling centimeter by centimeter

The times over the past year standing on the corner

Wanting to walk into the road hoping to get hit

Maybe you would tell me on my dying bed

How much you love me

Because i cant love me

Tell you day after day to leave me be

I know i dont deserve you...

Reviews

[My Fair Lady]

I completely understand this ache, pain and suffering of broken heart and torn hope.

[Wondering Mind]

"because i cant love me"- very, very sad write.

[Graceful]

awwww so sad. but very well written.

[MuSe Ampoule]

haunting and sad. Heartbreak is hell!