Before and After

Before and after pics

Before and After
I don’t like to look at pictures of myself
Now, then, ever
So I’ve lost weight
I’m not happier with my body
I still hate the way I look
I still criticize and critique every inch of me
In fact I loved my breasts before...
Just one more thing to add to the list
Maybe I’m healthier now
Maybe I can wear different clothes
Smaller clothes
But I still don’t buy anything that I see smaller, thinner women wear
I still don’t look good in anything
I would never wear a bikini
Then, now, ever
My before self was actually a bit happier
Because now I just wonder why everything I’ve done doesn’t make me look like the women I want to look like
And I’m smart!
I KNOW that we can’t all look the same
I know I’ve had babies
That I’ve lost weight
That those women are photoshopped and airbrushed
That they know how to turn their bodies and use the camera but still
Why have I done this much work
Lost this much weight
To still look like this
I HATE it
I don’t want my girls thinking this way
I don’t want them to hate their bodies
They’re perfect to me
They’re healthy and happy and I don’t want my damn demons to corrupt them
To make them see themselves as anything but amazing
BEFORE I was FAT and NOW I am thinner
So what

Reviews

[Gee]

Hi, you might like to read " She is beautiful " a few words I penned on this subject (sort of) for my good lady wife :))

[Sandra]

Thank you for the suggested read. I greatly appreciate it.

[Franky]

I think you look terrific. You are so sweet to care so much about your kids too. You are a good lady Sandra.

[Sandra]

I really appreciate your support and encouragement.