"Within,"

Acceptance, sad but true

Time and again, time yet again. I find myself doing what I always do "Wondering", Is there anyone out there for me, I've been here a long time but so many names to remember and so many scars to hide. I was born in a world before my time, darkness eases me as shadows keep me alive. A heart so deep is a heart so alone but most don't understand so I stay on my own. Strong I am! That's not even a doubt. Still this can't be what life's all about. I gave my all till I couldn't hold anymore and every time I open a window? crows lure. Dead inside, death survives. I've cried more than I've smiled and was always let down. No matter how much I care, love or try. I always am left with pieces of life. I survive but I'm not living! I am awake but I can't see anymore. I never sleep because I can't breath no more. I'm a mistake is what makes more sense when my feet touches the floor. If I'm so great, Why am I never enough, why the need to roar? why does it ache, when all I do is soar! I'm tired and It's late, confusion pours. I want to retire all slates and tell god I can't take no more. But my time is erased so no use to claw, when I'm at that gate my bruise will fall. A heart that will never truly be able to escape although it's of no use NO MORE, I try not to think so I wont feel the depths of flaws. I'm more myself now than I've ever been so I don't bother to tear, I just accept in this world, in my life, I'll forever be alone before and after deaths stare.. 

_silent poet

Reviews

[ANTO]

If we expect the worst then we are rarely disappointed - which is a saftey net mindset for living without living.
I think when we stop stressing about love, thats when is flows into our lives - almost as if the hoping and wishing for it creates a dam stopping it from coming into our world then when those walls crumble we get washed with universal love which in turn attracts other forms of love, maybe even atttracting the love of 'The One'.
Your writing here is heartbreaking in its despair. The wee image is also a heartwrencher. Good writing SP. :)

[silent poet]

Thank you so very much not only for your review but for your time to speak to me deeply in how you portrayed your insight! Greatly appreciated and I truly respect it. It opened my eyes to see I'm not crazy and that how I see things it not necessarily taking me down but it's a safety net. Really deep all you spoke/written. And I mean it from the bottom of my heart when I say THANK YOU ANTO!! you're a very kind person :)

[dead scribe]

Some broken hearted poetry, with a passionate perspective. good job

[silent poet]

Thank you dead scribe. ..

[BLitZeD]

Why am I never enough, why the need to roar? why does it ache, when all I do is soar!-

all that pent up hate, you dont need it no more,
lion lost in his jungle, fates at the door
im dying, in trouble, a twist on folk lore
the trouble is dying, slowly but sure

powerful write, head up boo