shouldn't of written,

going through heartache feels like death watching me, then time shows you're watching death.. I'M OK

 A month has passed and still you creep within, Every time it rains; RAIN

has nothing to do with my statement but RAIN! (today I can't) I actually cracked a little smile. Not of happiness just a glimpse of what I felt back then.

I thought it was happiness but you weren't even my friend. now my face winds down to that place I never wanted to be again. Thoughts over shadowing sight just wanting to see again. this wasn't suppose to go like this but feelings never truly stay on track, thunder, clouded everything not sure anymore if I even want time back. Mad at myself for even writing about you! 

Mad at me! for everything about YOU!! I can't, I'm just not there yet like I thought I was. I refuse to push myself to even think of,

days have been nice, nights ? just nights.. I am fine.. 

                                                           I will be fine.. 

it's just * .. .... *just when you creep within,

Author's Note

I used the WAY I wrote this to reflect my feels during the writing process, through each line or word? my feelings and/or thoughts changed. so quickly. As If I just wasn't sure anymore. which showed me I'm not there yet! I thought I was but I realized that, I was only doing a good job at PRETENDING,

Reviews

[AaronFreitas]

This is an awesome write! I love the you spilled your feelings and got it out! After heart break the other person doesn't deserve us to write about them yet our soul needs us to do it to let go of those emotions and move on. I know I've done... more than once and it helps. Nice work :)

[silent poet]

thank you very much Aaron! I appreciate it. It was crazy because when I started writing it was not leading up to anything that I've wrote. words just changed from one meaning or thought to another that I just poured instead of thought at all. But I am glad that I got it out, :)

[AaronFreitas]

Sometimes thats the best we can do... just write and let s**t get out. I enjoyed it :)

[wordman]

this is great,loved the way you brought in the thunder storms
it will get better ps welcome to W/C

[silent poet]

Thank you so much wordman for the kind words and the warm welcome.. :) I appreciate that.

[wordman]

it is my pleasure

[None]

...cool, found you a pdf copy: http://rlmalvin.angelfire.com/KaneSarah448Psychosis.pdf (be warned it is terrifyingly beautiful depressing ...after which Sara committed suicide)

[None]

...greetings!! I liked your approach together with the sway of emotion contained within your lines ...reminded my of Sarah Kane's "4.48 Psychosis" http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/4.48_Psychosis

[silent poet]

Thank you much. And also thank you for sharing the pdf. I appreciate that. I will read it entirely.