Chapter 8 –The Traveler Speaks: Part 3A Chapter by ScriberMore background on Mira as her story intersects with the nanobots.As time went
on, especially the last two years, things have been better. I guess I’m
growing up a little…I’m so sorry for what I put my dad through, he didn’t
deserve it. It wasn’t all bad though, NASA had a fleet of aircraft and my
dad was checked out on most of them. It was totally against the rules,
but sometimes, after most of the employees on base went home, he’d check out
one of the astronaut’s aircraft, the T-38’s, put some telephone books in the
back seat for me to sit on, and we’d fly together.
Dad was a
Gulf War era Naval Aviator. Unfortunately, he attended a Tail Hook
symposium just after the war and a few of the other aviators got out of hand, I
don’t know exactly what they did, but some Senator demanded that everyone who
attended the symposium at the time to have a black mark entered on their record.
Literally, it was a black mark… The Senator then went about making sure
that no one with a black mark ever got promoted. My dad was just about to
make Lieutenant Commander, and despite the fact that he was always among the
best when it came to rankings and fitness reports, he was passed over for
promotion. So, after 12 years of service, my dad was forced out.
One of his old commanders took care of him and got him this job. It
worked out for him, he loves it… No one ever questions his judgment or
why he’s out flying at night. All the support staff love him too…he
always takes care of people and treats them right. He’s a man of his
word, and I loved that about him. Not quite a Dudley do right…but you
could count on him. And people did. I didn’t realize
it at the time, but I really led a privileged life. What kid gets to grow
up living on Cocoa Beach and hanging out at NASA almost every day? We’d
go flying at night usually so the chances of me being spotted by someone who
would question him were minimal. His justification for the flights was to
keep up his currency and achieve his annual minimums. If he flew at
night, he’d be getting both night and instrument time…which was true. The
fun part and the illegal part of it was, once mom was gone, he took me with
him. All the old stogy “mom rules” were out the door, along with what
most would consider common sense safety rules. I missed her, but not her
rules. I was always with dad on this…if we decided we wanted to do or try
something, there was no stopping us. One thing dad taught me was how to
identify and manage risk. If you do that, you can successfully jump off
cliffs, ride bikes in traffic, swim with sharks…you name it. Managing
risk…that’s the key, not stogy rules. Like I said,
the guys working the flight line loved my dad and got a real kick out of this
little strawberry blond, perched up in the back seat of a fighter jet.
Those guys were my real family for the better part of my life. The
paraloft guys even kept me supplied with safety equipment. I had a
special black flight suit, parachute, harness and helmet…the whole nine yards
you could say. They told dad it was good practice for them to design and
modify my equipment…I thought it was great. Like visiting an uncle who
always had a present for me, we’d always stop into their shop before
flying. The guys took me in as one of their own, like I was a secret
pet. For years, every week or two, on a Wednesday or Thursday night at
Patrick Air Force Base, you’d see a T-38 taxi out around sunset and blast down
the runway in full afterburner.
Our favorite
T-38 was a black one with upgraded engines. Sometimes we’d head out over
the ocean and watch the sunset but my favorite, was to fly over Disney World in
time to see the fireworks from above. Sometimes we’d just practice
approaches and landings. I puked hard the first few times because I’d get
motion sickness. Being in a G-Suit, breathing the oxygen through a mask,
the claustrophobic feeling of a helmet and harness was not bad for me…what took
getting used to was the vertigo I’d get after the sun went down. My dad,
of course, figured it out and took me to a Space Shuttle simulator. After
he showed me what all the instruments meant, especially the attitude gyro,
things immediately got better. I learned to visualize a horizon even when
there wasn’t one by using the attitude gyro. Over time,
dad let me take the controls. At first, all I could really reach was the
stick…I learned what all the buttons and switches did and he taught me all the
emergency procedures. Said I would have to remember them if something
went wrong because he was getting old and couldn’t remember…hahaha dad…not
funny. As I grew, the guys kept upgrading my equipment…for my 11th birthday,
they painted up a special helmet for me, it was hot pink with a Hello Kitty
emblem on the side. So cool. At that point, I could reach the
engine throttles, so I learned all about those.
By my 12th birthday,
I could reach the pedals. The funny part about that was, I was all excited
to reach the pedals, but for this aircraft, you really didn’t have to touch
them except to ground taxi. Centerline thrust is the way to go dad always
said. The doctors say I’m supposed to be 5’9” tall eventually; I’m
probably 5’7” now. For my 12th birthday, my dad let me
complete instrument approaches and practice actual landings in the landing
pattern. We’d flip around the channels of the local bases to see if they
were busy. I really liked flying up to NAS Jacksonville because when we
made the radio switch to Jacksonville Center, he’d let me do all the radio
calls. Jacksonville Approach controllers got used to hearing my voice on
the radio too. I’d check in, and they’d give me special treatment,
sometimes allowing me to cut off others in the pattern so I could get two
approaches in for their one…haha. Sometimes it’s extra cool being a girl,
I never once complained about getting the red carpet treatment from my little
family down there. For a few years, I had listened to all dad’s radio
communications and had my hands on the controls to feel them as he flew so,
when he finally got the nerve to let me fly, it was as if I already had a few
hundred hours of flight time…because I did. Ever since
then, he has let me have more and more control until finally, he was letting me
do the whole flight from takeoff to landing. I’m so thankful for that
time we got to spend together. We never had one incident, no one outside
of our NASA family ever knew…
So, now I’m
14. For all these years, I’ve learned to cope by staying busy learning
and doing things…and now here I sit, trapped. Alone. Talking to
inanimate objects….I feel like a homeless lady, wandering around talking to the
voices in my head. My dad was
working on a big project for the last few years and I really didn’t know what
it was all about. NASA had been ordered to study the oceans and global
warming, but somehow, they had funneled budget funds into a space exploration
project. I didn’t know if the idea was to colonize Mars or send humans
beyond the solar system, but the rocket they were building was
spectacular. It made the Space Shuttle look like a tinker toy….but to me,
it was obviously built to be a one way trip, wherever it was going. I
actually got to visit the command module as it was being built…much larger than
anything I had witnessed before including the Space Shuttles and it included a
huge cargo bay. I was amazed; it was the size of a basketball
court. I wondered what they would be hauling…and to where. I loved being
one of the “Minutemen” at Cocoa Beach High School. If I wasn’t with dad,
I was at school, swimming or playing waterpolo. I don’t know if you can
see me or not, but check out my abs! Six pack baby!…and I can out swim,
out run, just about anyone. That’s what waterpolo did for me…plus, I love
competition of any kind.
Some say I’m
overly competitive…but as long as I’m just playing hard and not giving anyone
anything, I feel like the accusations are unfounded. Now, if I was
cheap-shotting people or taking short cuts…that’s different. If I play
something, I play to win. Oh, and not during waterpolo or swimming
seasons, because they’d pull me from playing, but sometimes I’d just skip
school and hit Cocoa Beach.
The school
would call dad, and he’d come find me on the beach. It was cool though,
he’d just sit down next to me and watch the waves come in. Sometimes, and
I never admitted this to him, when I just wanted some quality dad time, I’d
even tell the attendance lady I was skipping before attendance was even taken
so she could call dad first… I think he knew. Sometimes, he’d have
something important going on and take me back to work, but other days, he’d
just grab his swim suit out of the trunk and we’d go catch some waves together
body surfing. As long as I was getting my way, I was peaches and cream to
dad. Total manipulation... I liked a few
of the boys on the waterpolo team, and probably would have gone out with them
if they asked but, I don’t mind admitting it, I’m a daddy’s girl. And dad
set the bar pretty high for me as far as my interest in boys goes.
I was intentionally hard on boys, especially if they were nothing but
self-interested meat heads just looking for some kind of trophy.
I had a hard
time with the nerds too…seriously? Call it sexist if you like, but I
don’t want to be out on a date and be the one most likely to win a fight or
provide security. No, although I did look for someone like me who was
both an athlete and able to keep up an intelligent conversation, I just kind of
gave up figuring I’d have to wait a few years. No big deal though, I had
dad. He said I had nothing to worry about…early on I felt like a tomboy
of sorts but then around 12, 13, I started to get some curves and felt better
about myself. I guess I started believing dad more too…I still feel a
little self-conscious but, I like how I feel in shape, and I’m feeling more
happy now in my skin.
I tend to
avoid the crowd with the right hair and right clothes at school…the last couple
of years in middle school were the worst, so I was glad to hit high
school. Unfortunately, the same pretentious crowd was there, so, more
reason to skip out and head to the beach or practice. I don’t know what I
would have done if I didn’t have the sports or dad. It would have been
tough. In the last
month though, we stopped flying and dad grew much quieter…and sad. I
really didn’t know how to reach out or what to say to him but I knew something
was wrong. I went to visit him at work one day…and I was able to walk
around unescorted as usual but, he was nowhere to be found. Not in his
cubicle…not on the flight line, so I made my way over to the ship. It was
now on the launch pad, looking like it was almost ready to go but not
fueled. I never wanted to go close when they were fueling anything,
liquid oxygen is nasty stuff…just plain dangerous. One of my favorite
flight line guys made a mistake with the LOX cart while servicing one of our
aircraft and the thing exploded and killed him so, LOX is not my friend.
Anyhow, I climbed the tower with the help of security and made my way to the
cockpit…sure enough, dad was there. Sitting quietly, hands on his
head. I sat down next to him, “hi dad, what’s wrong?” That’s when
he told me. “I’ve been working for the last couple of years on this
project. Remember how we used to have fun thinking about being space
explorers? The idea was to put a colony on Mars. Initially, a one
way trip, but with more to follow to keep them supplied. We had to set
them up with enough supplies to get set up and survive for a year and I think
it would have worked.
This was big,
but it had to be kept secret because of the current political winds.”
“So, what happened?” I asked, “What changed in the last month?”
“It’s catastrophic,” he said as he turned to me and looked me in the eye, “the
earth is going to be hit by an extremely large meteorite and we only found out
about it in the last month.” “So, we’ve been hit by meteors before” I
said, “what’s the big deal?” “This is a big one…they say it’s almost the
size of the moon, and it’s approaching the earth at an unusual angle, from an
area in the sky that no one really looks for meteors. It approached the
sun and slowed down as it got pulled by the sun’s gravitational field.
The experts predict it will approach the earth relatively slowly, but the
impact will be catastrophic…we don’t even know if the planet itself will remain
intact.”
“So, when is
this all supposed to happen?” I really didn’t believe what he was
saying. “Four days.” I slumped back in the chair…”so what is the
plan for this rocket dad?” “We have received word that a handpicked crew,
picked by the administration, will launch just before the impact. A lot
more has been changed though, our payload has been modified in secret, even from
us, and we don’t know who the crew is. They have taken over our
project.” “So, some political appointees get to be saved while the rest
of the planet burns?” “That’s about it…and I’m not sure it’s the wrong
decision totally. Somehow, we have to save someone…but it worries me that
we are not sending the right people or that they have the right gear to live
autonomously on a hostile planet like Mars.” “So, what will you do?
What’s the plan?” “The plan is to hope we are wrong about this meteor and
it misses the earth….but for now, the plan is to cooperate and do what we can
for this team…we start fueling this afternoon.”
“Oh,
dad…” I whispered as I started to well up. “How can I help?
Can I stay here with you?” “Yeah, I’d like to spend as much of these days
as possible with you…but there is work to be done ok?” “OK,”I said, “I’m
in.” So, for the next couple of days I was at his side taking care of
anything that I could from fetching coffee to running administrative
errands. It was nice, every time I came back from an errand, I’d hug
him…”I love you dad” He’d put his arm around me, “I love you too.”
He treated every moment as if it was our last…I guess he had a better
understanding of everything than I did. On day three,
with the fueling almost complete, I was walking through the office and heard
the director on the red phone in a heated discussion. Something was going
on so I went to dad immediately…”Something’s going on dad.” “Yeah, I
know. We have orders to launch the rocket today, not tomorrow.”
“What about the political appointees?” I asked. “They aren’t coming…I
don’t know why, but we are ordered to launch the rocket without a crew.
The payload is loaded, the computers are programmed…it’s all on automatic but,
without a crew.” “When is the launch?” “In about an hour…I’ve got to go
up and make sure the command module is buttoned up and set to go. Would
you like to come with?” “Sure, dad.”
So, we walked
up to the pad and up the stairs. The liquid hydrogen fuel was cold and
condensation gave the humid Florida air momentary bursts of coolness. It
was nice. Once in the
command module, dad looked over everything. Meticulous attention to
detail was his trademark with things like this. “Have a seat, Mira” he
told me.
Once done, he
came over and sat beside me. “So, have I mentioned that I love you? And
have great faith in you?” “Yeah dad, all the time…I love you too.”
“Well, now is one of those moments where hard decisions have to be made…and I’m
not sure if I’m making the right one but…trust me ok?” “What?”
“Take these sleeping pills, strap in and become the explorer you’ve always
dreamed of.” “dad…no…”
I didn’t know
what to think…”Listen, I can’t go with you…by later on today, the Earth might
not even exist…this is the chance of a lifetime…take it…and don’t look
back. I love you.” I couldn’t say no to him, I know he wanted to
save me somehow, in a way he could not save mom years ago. Finally, he
had some power over the situation…at least a little power. “OK
dad…” So, I took the pills…and the last thing I remember was him hugging
me with tears in his eyes, “I love you sweet girl…”
Those are the
last words I heard. They still echo in my mind. He cinched me
up tight, made sure I was all set…and that’s all I remember. Now…I’m not
sure where I’m headed, when I’ll get there, what I’m supposed to do…but mostly,
I’m just overcome with loneliness, and of course, deep sadness. Right now, it’s looking less like an
adventure of exploration and more like a fate worse than death. …and why
am I talking to a computer? I know this
one…Avril Lavigne, ‘I’m with you, right?’ Perfect…. it does sound great
in here…lots of reverb. I liked the Backstreet Boys one too….the meaning
of being lonely…Thanks for the music, I actually don’t feel as alone
now…ironically. Since waking
up, I am afraid to touch any of the controls but the view of the moon has been
more spectacular each day. Looks like we are going to zoom right past it
so I’m looking forward to seeing it up close. Not even the shuttle
astronauts got to see that. Beyond that, I don’t know. Perhaps you
can help? I see we have thrusters, but I don’t know how much and how long
they would work so I didn’t use them. I really want to rotate the ship
around to see what has become of the earth.
"It feels like bedtime now… For
tonight, I imagine you take requests…I’d like to hear a couple of songs before
I go to sleep. Oh, and I’d like to wake up early tomorrow…for my wake up,
I’d like to hear ‘Radioactive’ by Imagine Dragons ok. Right now…I’d like
to hear ‘See you again’ and go to sleep with some Chad Valley, perhaps ‘Shell
Suite’ and ‘Evening Surrender’? Do you have those? OK…see you in
the morning. The moon is beautiful isn’t it?…." © 2015 Scriber |
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Added on December 2, 2015 Last Updated on December 5, 2015 AuthorScriberPortland, ORAboutNothing special, just a guy with an imagination who needs help articulating things properly at times. more..Writing
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