Hitlers Nightmare

I cannot find within myself,
the courage to forgive myself,
the wrongs that I have done.

I cannot see within this fear,
to find out what has put it there,
to prize it out and rid myself,
of the dieing I have done.

My past comes back,
long to haunt,
the fortitude I might have had,
to rid myself of the holocaust in my heart.

My despair has become my prison,
the prison my demise,
my demise cannot free me
from my wandering feeble mind.

I cannot seem to remember,
to let go of what I am not, 
to let go of what I am,
is nothing of the plot.

I cannot feel forgiven,
if my past continues to catch up,
to my present and my bleeds into my future,
that I will try to forget I have lived.

My sanity slow slips to the shore,
that cast it's doubt
and to that end
I cast my judgement,
on myself I cast me out.

My strength comes from my resolve,
but attrition has taken hold
and cowardice has found me out,
so to the holocaust I condemn my evil soul.

Reviews

[AJ Kristiansen]

Very powerful realmwriter. I like it a lot. Many strong concepts conveyed here, sometimes there is a struggle in the flow of the poem and the use of "present" twice in one line could be changed (if you wanted to). The last line "My strength comes from my resolve, but attrition has taken hold and cowardice has found me out, so to the holocaust I condemn my evil soul." I love that verse, really impacting and loved your exploration of history of another life from your perspective, very interesting!! Well done!!!

[Poeticpiers]

But just perhaps he meant well at first but power corrupts.
Even he will get another chance

[Leslie Philibert]

I really like the idea of looking at historical figures in a lyrical way,it`s something that you don`t offer read.And the poem is good too, simple powerful words that
convey a lot a emotion.I fear however that such an evil soul was probably not able to feel such subtle emotions.Good work.

[Rowan Storm]

Tortured soul. Very evil and very remorseful. Too bad Hitler wasn't actually remorseful.

[ChaoticSoul]

You take on a really interesting and different perspective within this poem. It creates a haunting darkness that I am intrigued by. Good use of allusions, as well.