This Is What I Wanted

Now you know now you see
That this is what ill always bee
I give my life for one more glance
I give my heart for one more chance

I see your face to be torn apart
I think of you to rip out my heart
So far from me what shall I do
So hard to see that this is you

How did I let you get away
Why I didnt convince you to stay
What will I do now your not hear
Who now will help me face my fear

Everything Ive ever dreamed
Came out of hell or so it seamed
Now the one thing I so desire
I can not have, if for the fire

Burning there inside of me
A wish to be what can not be
A simple cry Ill understand
What each of you hold in your hand

Often still I think of this
Until I can not hold the hiss
This my torture will always bee
This my pain lest somewhere I flee

Far from here Ill find my rest
Not before Ive done my best
To rid myself of all this fear
Now to start another tear

He may not have the most fun
If I had one Id give it all to my son
He may not have the best dad
If I had one Id be the best he ever had.

All I want is to have a son or daughter now that hope is gone
Somehow I plea to return to me and give me what Ive never had.

I did wrong and fell in love when all she wanted was a friend
Further down the rode she too fell in love with me.

She said she could, I challenged her to do just that
Yet tried in vain to keep my heart away.

Little by little day by day she began to find her way
Through the cracks in my wall of protection so my feelings wouldnt get hurt.

I challenged her and she excepted I wasnt looking for it to go that way
I didnt think I would let her in, she didnt think she could get in.

Now however she is there resting at my hearts wide open door
One thing she wanted I wanted too, I was willing to help her through.

  For far away she has gone, now my eyes cant look upon her glowing face
We may not have what we wanted but we do have what was never there.

Yes I know this one is odd, as am I so its apropos

Reviews

[Kenneth The Poet]

I like the transition from one style to the next. Seems to me that you wrote part of it at one point, then lost momentum but then you picked it up later. Or I could be wrong. Either way, this is a thoughtful piece full of hope and promise.

Nice work.

[Ripple of Aqua]

Kind of amusing as you watch both pair and couple fall for one another at different paces.