Inspiration

Inspiration can occur anywhere and everywhere you look. Right now I am sitting here in my boxers and I have noticed that everyones inspiration is from something that has happened to them. Most of the time this inspirational occurance is a sad and depressing one. It can however be a happy joyious one as well. For me my inspiration is my mother. Last summer my mother got pregnant with a baby girl. Early in the pregnancy we were told that the baby has had some complications. Then later on it was diagnosed with a condition called T-18. It is defined as a organism uncapable of life. For days my mother cried over what she should do. She could abort, but she has seen the heart beat and can not end this little life. Then she was told to have the baby, but the baby would die within weeks or days. I have a little sister waiting for this baby, how would we explain how she had a baby sister but now she is gone. So we scratched the idea of letting lilli(my sister) to even see the baby. In the end they decided to induce labor. I decided that I would be with my mom for when this happens. we were all in there for days. this baby did not want to come out. How could you blame her to come into this cold world and die. In the end when this baby, they named graci, decided to come out the cord was wrapped around her neck and she died. Then we had a funeral for her. I keep a sheild up to keep my self from being saw for what I really am. I am really a emotional kid that will cry when im all alone abotu things that have happened years into the past. When I was at the funeral I kept my poise i didnt cry, i kept strong for my mom. But when I look back at seeing that tiny little coffin being lowered into the ground, I am reduced to tears. But what I am tring to say is my inspiration is, my mom having felt the worst of all of us is still going strong. Everyday she thinks about graci. Everyday she has to deal with my little sister bringing graci up, she calls her graci baby. My mom has kept strong for her family through the whole thing. It pisses me off that someone as nice and caring as my mom has had to go through this. It really just annoys me. My inspiration is my mom and no one else.

Reviews

[Servant Ties]

i liked it as well for it is deep passionate about what inspiration comes from and like Summer Under The Ol..my aunt also had that happen twice. it really is a sad thing to see but Im glad hat you stayed strong for your mom and I bet she really appreciated when you stayed with her when little graci was born, sometimes the world is cruel and takes things away that should live, but take this as learned lesson and show that whatever is thrown at you you and your family can handle it by staying both strong and supportive of each other.

*bows*
-nocturnalfantasy

[ABBY]

i didnt read the hull thing (i only read the first and second sentences) but i think it was about your mom. i am very impresed that you would right about how your mom inspores you....i thats not what i was about then im sorry for making you read this and waste your time...... my deep apoliges

[MarchAprilMayJuneJuly]

wow... this made me cry... it was sad, but in a good way. sort of saying that even when the going gets tougher than you even thought it could, you have to stay strong. i hate funerals and i think about dead family members and some not family member everyday... my grandmas baby died a day after it was born, and so did my great grandma's.. it was both their 4th child, and i was my mom's 4th.. i didn't die thankfully... i give a million kudos to your mom because she is very strong... deaths suck, and when you can get through them, it only makes you stronger! this was very deep and emotional.. i loved it.

~may

[Summers Under The Old O..]

This is a very honest and deep piece. You made a good point saying that inspiration can come from anything, from good AND bad things. I know from experience the hardest lessons learned are ones that hurt the most. This is a good story, even though the story itself is so sad. I'm sorry about your baby sister, but you've made sure the world will now know and remember little Graci. My aunt also had this happen to her, her baby was born, named, and burried. It's a sad and hard time for anyone when a newborn child dies. =[