Leave me aloneA Story by ChristoI rather not knowing then hatingEvery morning at 6.25 I went to the bathroom, brushed my teeth, washed my face and took a quick shower. Somewhere else in the world there were ninety years old twins who celebrated their birthday while a little boy of eight in the other side of the world tried to commit suicide. Everybody just did their own daily routine to make them self happy. As for some people smiling and laughing are the reason to live for other it is just a hurtful feeling. Even though there are so many thoughts to reach happiness there are no blind eyes could see colours. Does love do all the tricks? Is love enough to survive all?
I used to live in a life that was not truly mine. I didn’t realize how it went but I was dragged into it. All I did just lead somebody else’s. I always thought that life was just a long time sorrow and happiness was a gift from somebody else as my gift to others. So I have waited till someone gave it to me and never knew that I can create my own.
After have lived for few years with Mr Desley, I felt something odd happened to me. His simple life has erased my sorrow away. Without telling me he showed me the right way to go. I realized then that I have always walked the wrong direction all my life. The grass can be green and the snow can be warm. And some people who used to be my hero were just a horror creatures who used my life in state of loving it. For them it was just a simple joke but the truth is, it was a mind beyond cruelty. So I have learned to leave it behind me and try to live without. I know that I couldn’t finish the process in one day but I am on my way there.
Do we all have to work hard to be happy? Do we need someone to be happy?
One thing I know, there are so many peoples who are eager to make me sad. They couldn’t sleep at night just to bring me their daily bad news. So I am asking them now to leave me alone as I do them.
I rather not knowing then hating.
© 2008 Christo |
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